I Really Hate To Admit It But....

I have also smoked pretty much every day this year, it doesn't get me depressed in any way, it mainly affects my productivity. If I wouldn't have to think about the money I'd probably make excuses and never went on a break One advantage of being on a tight budget I guess

 

Sorry it took me so long to respond guys, I feel asleep. Thanks for all of your concern you guys kick ass :love:

Yeah I forgot what it felt like to be sober also...it scares the hell out of me. Before I started smoking pot I had so much anxiety. I mean I still get anxious about some things, but it 's not as bad as it used to be.

I quit smoking blunts recently because of ^, my lungs feel a lot better. The depression thing for me I think is a combo of being anti-social with no friends and the weed combined. I used to have tons of friends, but then got fucked over by most of them (including my own mother) because I WAS too nice and giving, but that was nobodies fault buy my own. Now I'm a cold bitter bitch who doesn't trust anyone!

My god yes it is fucking hard! Especially dealing with my annoying ass old lady, LOL! Sometimes I think I would get along better with a man, all my friends used to be guys because I really don't get along with women that much. Women talk too much and ask too many questions. I just like to chill and only speak when I feel something is either important or exciting to me, so I get bitched at a lot for not "expressing my feelings enough" Blahhh fuck feelings!!

Peter Griffin reminds me of a male version of my old lady Lisette. Yes she is that fucking stupid and it annoys the hell out of me!! I don't know what happened to her over the years, she used to be a completely different person. I guess that's what long term relationships to do people though.

 

tell me about it, I had to quit a few weeks ago and I'm now remembering what a horrible, anxiety-fueled person I used to be. Just neurotic as all hell. I keep thinking I'm naturally this laid back, easy going person but I'm starting to realize that smoking weed helped bring out that part of my personality.

 

I haven't been sober in years.... Today I am sober...

 

sobering news

 

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Cheer up. I am affected profoundly at every level by the substances I take in and that process never stops as long as you breath effecting gaseous exchange. Everything is a drug interacting with our chemical system. Certainly a craving for more lucidity and range of function indicates dissatisfaction with your current habits. I personally do not have a conflict about it. That is if I were disabled in any other way I would gainfully adapt.

The conflict is not produced by the effect of the drug but when what you contemplate for yourself is different from what you actually do.

 

Yes indeed.

 

I gotta say im reaching that point again as well. In my senior year I blazed dusk to dawn the whole winter break then realized i needed to quit because i just felt numb and like a slob the whole time. It is a slippery slope becaus eif you dont get very diligent in limitting yourself, you can easily start waking and baking and next thing you know u r taking several bong hits a day. You have to treat weed as an enhancement to yourself, you can´t let it rule or dictate what you should do like any other drug. For instance, if you just blaze and pass out or eat everything in te fridge or just spend the whole day watching tv, then it is time to improve the main frame in your life.

Being a stoner cannot be your main thing because then you are just going to deteriorate and won´t be satisfied with any activity unless it involves weed.

In the month that I was sober, I was in the best shape of my life and had a lot more time and money to do other things. Nevertheless, I had probles with anxiety and stress so i picked it up again at a more productive pace. So, I will light up and go about my business as opposed to slacking off or "wasting time" watching tv or something.

 

If you're going to quit you have to find something else that produces a relaxed state for you. As for me, I did it daily for short periods of time, then I'd start doing it only socially, then I would only do it on special occasions or if I felt like I really needed it for pain, eventually I just decided I needed to stop completely.

I went through all those phases and it has now been a year and I can't really imagine smoking anything again. I feel so much better. I appreciate the time I had with weed, but for me I used it as a tool to help me gain skills to reach a relaxed, yet clear state without having to eff up my lungs and my brain. Each time I cut back more and started again, it became apparent that I was doing better without it...even when I was doing it very, very rarely...it became easy for me to decide I didn't need it the last few times I smoked.

You just have to be open and listen to what your body is telling you and don't accept that the world sucks and you can't have friends, or success...don't allow yourself to think that you're lazy or "burnt out"...if you try to succeed and it's not working start changing the things you're doing. As you experiment it will become apparent what you need to do to live a fulfilling life. Keep exploring...that's what the weed is for in my opinion, it opens your mind and once you get that opening it doesn't go away...you can feel high without having to take in drugs.

 

Well it's been since sunday since i've smoked weed or cigs... I came to the conclusion that if I wanted to quit cigs I would have to quit smoking weed.. For me the two more often than not go hand in hand... get high.. smoke a cig.. It's been going great.. actually just broke my 24hr water fast.... my appetite has considerably dropped.. I'm lucky if i can get myself to eat two meals which for me is great because I really felt the that marijuana was one of the BIG contributing factors to my weight gain.. making me lethargic and hungry.. not a good combination.. will I smoke weed again? maybe.. it'll probably be limited to very special occasions if I do