Ok. I have been single my whole life. I've never had a real boyfriend. I have kissed guys, but haven't done anything else with them, I'm still a virgin. I'm 18 and I'm in my first semester of college. I always did really well in school, kind of nerdy I guess but I was never "un-popular" if you want to place labels. I was always accepting of people, and was voted most outgoing when I graduated and was even prom queen (I'm not the stereotypical prom queen type.) Basically my point is this: I'm sick of being alone. I feel awkward talking about sex with people, and I have a hard time picturing myself having sex, like I feel really unattractive, even though I'm not. I mean I'm not wicked skinny, like I don't have a perfect body, but I'm not really fat. I have a lot of guy friends, but when I'm around guys I feel like they are always flirting with everyone else so much more, and I just feel really shitty sometimes. I don't know what to do to open up and gain more self-confidence. I need to get some ass..lol, but I don't want it to be with just anyone, I mean it doesn't have to be cheesy movie special or anything, but at least someone I care about. And not when I'm high or drunk for the first time I've decided. But anyways, what should I do?