I found a way of dealing with people trying make me angry. People all my life have been trying make me angry. Some of the neighborhood kids did it often. Others too when I was a child and an adult. When people are trying to discriminate against me (which rarely happens, as I've said), they often do it. Obviously to make me make a scene, to use that against me. When I was in a program in 1988, the staff there were trying to infuriate and degrade me, in ways I have never been before in my life. In ways that would turn a normal person to desperation. By playing upon the fact I thought I could trust people, especially people there to help me. Fortunately nothing came of that. And I'll leave that there. But like I've told therapists, it showed that I actually have a lot more strength than I thought. Maybe even more than the average person sometimes. But you know, that's what really makes people angry. When they try to anger or humiliate me, and it doesn't bother me. The reason why I don't know is because I don't read emotion on people as well as they do on me. That's obviously due to my psychological problems. I think there is a name for that. I don't know what it is though. But here's the thing. From now on, when people try to make me angry, I just won't let it affect me, as usual. And if they try to make me more angry, I will do that more. The more they do it, the less I will let it get to me. And then they'll try to make me think it's not making them angry. Yes it is. It's making you angry. It's making you very angry. And if you're reading this, now you know what I'll do. Plus I am not afraid to use existing methods, including legal ones, to hold people responsible for what they do to me. So remember that too.
