I just wanna paint a fucking picture!

I understand this... and I also understand that she lost a very close friend... and very much feel for her but there's a line where it becomes clear that someone refuses to be consoled and to move on and if she projects the same rage and hair trigger personality in R/L that she does here then I can fully understand the mom's reaction.

 

To FWG...

How about writing something... you have a way with words. Express yourself that way until you've figured out the combination to unlock your mom.

 

They really suck, i just kinda made them retarded looking.

 

iono
i just haven't had any insperation to write lately

 

actually,i don't let my parents see anything going on with me, if they did, they would freak out and be like "You need to see a shrink, blah blah blah...."
So i'm on my own on this one as everything else usually is. I'm working on getting over it

 

I would respectfully suggest that you find a friend who you can trust and confide in and let out all the shit you're bottling up. Find a setting where being violent will not hurt anyone or damage anything and just fucking let go. You might look to any of the friends that you and Austen had in common- they will at least understand why you are where you are. You may need to return to the setting from time to time but without an appropriate outlet all the bad energy will do damage to you- if it hasn't already started.

 

the thing is ,I'm not miss touchy-feely, i'm kinda a tomboy, and i hardley show that i have like sad feelings

I have opened up to one of my friends, Nick.
it's very weird. i'm not a person who talks about my feelings so it was really werid

 

really? i think mine are terrible too..

they all look like i've done too much acid.. and i've never touched the stuff!

must paint more dots!

 

Never been a good painter meself... I stick to music

Ever just tried staring at the ceiling and talking to yourself?

 

^Yes, I have, but i end up falling asleep

well, here are my shitty paintings

 

they look half done to me..

:leaving:

 

I like them. Especially the last two.

 

yea man just fucking paint

 

Shitty?
I won't call them shitty. Are they for sale?

 

you actually like them?

I gave the first one to my friend hannah and the last one to my friend dana, but you can have the middle one if you want

 

You diffinetly got some talent.

 

here's my favorite one and its on my wall





I named it "Smoke In Peace"

 

You're not a bad artist at all- those are quite good.

 

nice

 

i also painted another

it's a tree with like rasta bricks in the background.
I painted it on drywall that my dad was taking down
I like it alot