I did something to upset my boyfriend. No, I didn't cheat on him or anything like that...I love him way to much to hurt him like that. I think this hurt him though. Right now I just want to die. He is so mad at me. I posted in that stupid boob club thread. Its weird, I got so comfortable with my body I didn't think anything of it. I didn't think he'd care or be mad. He uses the forums too, I didn't expect him to not see them. At the time I did it I did it because I wanted to get over the last hump of this dumb fear I've had since I've grown these stupid boobs... the fear of people seeing them. The fear of just putting myself out there. So, I posted in that stupid booby club thread. I forgot about it. I didn't even think about once after that. Well, he just came across them and didn't say much besides something along the lines of, "I don't know about getting married". I deleted it all. I am so sick with grief over losing him because he means so much to me. I just don't know what to do. I am so tired of all the sadness in my life right now, I'm so sick of living. I feel like such a bad person...I've never cheated, never thought of it and never would want to... We even broke up but for some reason found each other again. I've never loved anyone as much as I do him and I can't see spending the rest of my life without him. So much healing has happened inside of me since I've met him and now it just all feels like its crumbling. I don't know what to do. I don't want to lose out on the best man I've ever met. Sorry, I needed to rant. I needed to get it out somewhere.