I just had a breakdown. :( I NEED HELP!

I hate the thought of my family dieing. Those are the worst thoughts ever. I become very very sad and depressed about shit like that.

 

I can't type fast since I broke my arm a week ago lol
So I'll keep this short and simple

(caution: more depressing thoughts)
Life can be fully of depressing thoughts such as the idea of death, existence terminated indefinitely
and that feeling of guilt that you haven't spent enough time/let that person know you love them before they die
and how you feel like life will always be happy at moments and sad at others, being depressed too much/often to go on with life
and how the world is fake, society is a corporal materialistic brainwashed system that doesn't exist, consumers and greed stricken clones
and how each day we just wake up just to eat sleep and wake up tomorrow, in the path of a controlled conformist lifestyle with no purpose other than to feed into the current government system...

Instead of preaching of how life is quite the opposite and just keep trying nonsense, I am going to introduce some thoughts that are full of optimism

Having children, continuing the everlasting strain of live on earth
Sharing memories and giving them the best childhood you can
Sitting with your parents and children, grandparents, grandchildren and just cherishing life and its privileges
Inspiring fascination in your offspring through reading books to them, sharing stories
Dreams of traveling the world, exploring the rich culture of our ancestors
Our ancestors that tangled in a web of life that is forever branching
The idea that each person has something deep within them to reach out and sprinkle upon one another, through bonding, love and relationships of all kinds