I hate not being in love.

You'll have to put it in layman's pictures

 

Romance novels.

 

Once I realized I was not only male, but had the essence of female within me, my loneliness vanished, and I have been whole ever since.

Don't get me wrong...I love to love...but until a lover comes my way...

I am content.

 

Are you suggesting that you are a hermaphrodite?

 

absolutely not.

 

Stalk surpasses any mortal label.

 

Care to add anymore to this?
I am intrigued.

 

Yeah...it's complicated, huh?
Took me years to understand this...and I've only just begun, really...

I don't know what else to say, though.
I feel like I said it all.

Do you have questions?

 

^same here stalk. Can you share a bit ? Penny for your thoughts.

 

Well, I understand what you are saying.
I guess, what I am asking, what approach did you use to find this path?

 

Well stalk from the imagine at hand, id say your statement has something to do with yin and yang. Tao or something along those spiritual paths?

If so cool, I really enjoy the message of tao.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tao

 

I've been studying kundalini yoga for the past few years.
it's a very, very strange system.
a lot of it I've learned to adapt to my own life, and not take too literally.

I heard about kundalini after I had what they call an "awakening" which was a menacing period of about 2 years where I went through major transformations, pain, and psychotic learning experiences. (and lots of LSD)

for some reason...my knowledge about these things are just given to me.
it's so bizarre, hush. I don't know how it works.

I've even crossed paths with a true guru...the disciple of the guy who wrote autobiography of a yogi...
met Baba through one of my clients, who knows him very well.
(I work in recording studios)

I'm not trying to sound special or anything...it's just amazing, magic, and strange the way it all works out on this path I've been on...

I am just so in love...I've been alone for years. It's taught me so much.

You are your own guru.

sorry if this doesn't make much sense, it's all very strange.

and it's all hindu, I know, but there are no other teachings that go in depth into this phenomenon and divinity like they do...

All of this stuff I learned while meditating on LSD, believe it or not,
I relearned it all through kundalini yoga
I learn more and more every single day
everything becomes clearer

so...meditate...

 

Thanks for taking the time to flesh that out for me.
I see your motivations as being pure and of great intent.
Thank you so much.

 

you are welcome...
I never thought I would be into these kinds of things..
but, kundalini transformed me and taught me all of this.
(she's the spirit of consciousness itself)

 

So Stalk, are you in love with you? In love with life? In love with the divine? Or do you have peace and contentment within you? None of these are meant to be mutually exclusive, btw.

 

I know exactly what you mean. I have to have a crush at all times. I have to have someone to phantasize about.

Thank god for the bartender redhead! Phew!

 

A crush isn't love. It's not fulfilling.

 

Well, I don't know what love is.

Edit: But I do honestly think I could feel it for the first time with the redhead mentioned above. Maybe.

 

I just pour my love into the source, the sun, and it comes back to me
if I did not, I would be stagnant....and you gotta flow...
I am in love with myself sometimes...other times I'm in too much pain to give a shit (I am just a cell in a brain and I love the brain and where it comes from)
In love with the divine? hell yes....I can't believe the things I've experienced...
I am always peacefully content. Even when hell comes...I'll know it's time to play, time to dance, time to die. sometimes I can't wait.