I had a very hippy day yesterday

Its sort of because of my personality. I really love tripping and other mind-exanding drugs becuase they allow you to learn so much when used in a responsible way.

I compare Xanax to what it's like to just be really stupid when not on drugs. I took 2 mg at school and couldnt understand anything. I also didn't feel happy/euphoric/open like I do on opiates, which I do like. I then went home, didn't remember anything and passed out for 3 hours.

All in all, Xanax blows mad dick; I've seen people really fuck themselves up from doing it to often. Its really sad actually

 

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that post wasnt even to me but i still read it and felt it and just wanna say that was really cool.

 

Geez, didn't expect Penny's initially fun-loving thread to take that turn.

But since we're on the subject, I honestly have no problem with a little bit of drug use as a coping method. Sure it's a crutch, but if it helps distract me from the urge to off myself for those first most painful days until I am in a more logical and less emotional place, then I say why not?

 

Man! Some of you are right on tonight! Yeah, people like to judge but there are times when things can get you through a hard time easier... whatever that "thing" is.... As for me, I've been smoking a lot lately to deal with the pain of what my life is and mourning the lose of an old self- I know I'm not gonna smoke everyday forever and I've actually been realizing some wonderful things about myself that are going to help me significantly in the future. So if that helps me now..... I think it's worth it and it's not anyone elses place to judge how people deal with their lives.

 

Guys that you. You're all very sweet. I did kind of act like a spoiled brat in this thread and for that I apologize
besos

 

I tried to pm you.

2. Bella Désordre has exceeded their stored private messages quota and can not accept further messages until they clear some space.

 

I didn't really read this thread past themnaxs insane rants, but cheers penny, summer is a good time for cruising, it can clear the brain, and yes, pot can cloud the brain

 

I'm feelin you more and more on the first but I'm going through a huge metamorphis. I had a long talk the other night about how pot can make you think you know all the answers but it just tricks you and does cloud you up. I still think it's benefiting me though at this point. Anyways, I was at my friend's house yesterday and saw a sparks can on the floor to ash in and wow... this chick said it was great so i'm defiantly gonna try it within a week. It made me think of you.

 

So true I used to take the 4 1/2 hour trek all the way down to New York City just to cruise around midtown Manhattan.


Hotwater

 

arghhhhhhhh sorry ):

 

Just to let everyone know I just took a .25 mg xanax. I just thought I would liven things up a bit and perhaps give you guys some entertainment with the argueing posts that will follow my admitted xanax use for coping with my greif.
Hopefully you'll get some heated posts following this later on so please folks...pop your popcorn and grab your non-transfats margarine spray because it may just be an entertaining afternoon.

 

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for realz... if you knew you were safe and obviously you were... it's all good. don't worry about the naysayers. you know you.

 

I love you. I wasn't kidding about us all double dating some day. I love double dates! and you know what fuck it I love xanax too

 

I also love vodka and sex and weed and spending twice the reccomended time int anning beds. All of those things make me happy. I guess you could say I just live on the edge man.

 

I also love buying clothes I can't afford and driving all the way to the drive through to get lattes and then coming home to drink it even though we have coffee here. I am so bad for me and right now I just don't care.

 

It can be configurated at some point for real.

:spliff:

 

I jumped into a deep ocean with a bit build up but it was like bam! anyways yeah. its good.
i love laying out in the sun even though its forbidden.

 

right on I roll excellent joints and we can make dinner together and make the boys do the dishes.

 

That would be so much fun and I'm so down for it. Right now I'm at a place in my life that I want to live and just do all the things I want to do.

 

as long as you gals vaccum and mop and dust and other stuff...i'll do dishes