And I think I may have done something with someone, who I'm too terribly embarrassed to admit to doing something with, even online. I'm making myself sick over it, literally. I don't even know if it happened because that's how far gone I was. I just have one flash back and it could be just all in my head, but it felt like it happened after I got myself together again. I'm terribly ashamed and I just want to run out of town. More so, I really want to know if it actually happened but I cannot bring myself to ask, nor can I bring myself to tell anybody. Fuck, why can I not remember?!?