I feel like i should just give up on life... seriously

If you bastards are selling popcorn I want a cut of the action....

 

i dont blame Tom for saying his responses about me at all. im really a piece of shit, and a damn fucking fool. Everything i said was moronic and just completly for everything i said there was something i said to just contradict it. in the end he is right.

as for what i am going to do, well i talked it over with my mom and well it didnt go as well i would have hoped. i told her and basically expressed that i would go to the program and get my shit straight for the 30 days or so, but it didnt get the initial response i would have liked. she just couldnt stop crying, and those tears were for all the wrong reason. god i cant even believe how pathetic i am. she does everything for me, when i dont deserve one bit of it. she doesnt deserve any of this at all. the thought of going through this week and seeing my grandma and participating in the graduation ceremony, and then admitting myself in the rehab the following monday after everything was just taken as if i am just going to exercise the option to withdraw myself out of the current IOP program that i am in and nothing else. when i said multiple times that i am going to participate in the residential program and meaning every bit of it. even though the majority of the response were very harsh and critical of my lifestyle, everybit of it is well deserved. i am worthless. and now the next step is to make things right. not only for just my mom and dad, but mostly for myself. thanks again for all the feedback.

 

No that's the thing, you're not worthless.
That's why it's worth trying to recover.
Drugs are all fun until its not a choice anymore.

<3

 

I did not say you were a piece of shit... I told you were a moron (and I should have said you are acting like one), and I told you to grow up...

Making mistakes and LEARNING from them is what that is about.

Whining about other peoples responsibilities over your issues, was your biggest mistake here.

If you feel you can control your addiction, good for you (although I think you are delusional), that is a choice you get to make... But it will never, ever be somebody else's responsibility to help you fix it.

The whole, I'll make a deal with them, so it doesn't embarrass them... I am almost positive, that you missing your prom is going to embarrass them a fuck of a lot less then them having to say, "hey there's our graduate, we're so proud of the heroin junkie"

 

I just think it would suck to die by cheese

 

BUMP.......



Cheers Glen.

 

I don't feel the need to justify my actions in a forum.
It's that simple.
"I admire addicts. In a world where everybody is waiting for some bline, random disaster, or some sudden disease, the addict has the comfort of knowing what will most likely wait for him down the road. He's taken some control over his ultimate fate, and his addiction keeps the cause of death from being a total suprise."

 

I watched that big fish film once, decided I probably don't want to know when i'll die

that would freak the fuck out of me

 

I'd rather not cause my death too.

 

quoted for future amusement

 

Yeah, I hear you there.

 

Thats could be the silliest thing I have ever heard Addicts have no control over anything, thats why their addicts. Just because the chances are they will OD and die alot earlier than most does not put them in control of their lives.

 

You need a life

 

Yeah, I should model it after yours... do nothing but mooch of your parents, be an attention whore and whine about life...

 

Haha you know nothing of my life. You should be so lucky.

 

The only way it is possible that I know NOTHING about your life, is if to top it off, you are 100% full of shit with everything you have posted.

Of course... I don't really have an issue believing that....

 

You Have To Be Joking, Right.??..



Cheers Glen.

 

You know nothing of value. You only know the trivial. You don't know of my relationships, my mannerisms, my accomplishments. You only know of the threads I have started and posted on. Mostly the information and advice I choose to seek out online because these are the opinions that mean the least to me.
So you berate me with your insults "attention whore" "immature" and attempt to make yourself seem cerebral.
Are my threads and posts dramatic...yes
Are they sporadic... yes
Do I spend alot of time thinking ahead of time of what i'm posting before hand.
Not at all, why? Because it is people like you that really hold no importance in my life
I can say and do whatever I like, because I really have no regard for your opinion.

 

It was in quotations.
Chuck Palahniuk

 

Of course you don't which is why you have not responded to a single one of them.

lol