I Feel Hopeless.

So, you put in all that hard work and determination to finish college... and then you make your decision? I'm proud. It means you're distracting yourself from suicide the best way you know how. Keep at it. Find other distractions. Running is good - I'm actually starting that myself, though I have no clue if I'll ever get into the community of runners as I'm more a musician than anything. But yeah, find other things to keep busy, and try not to be afraid. Definitely a good idea to step away from gaming. For the fluoride thing - hey, O know in my above post I completely called BS on it, but if it makes you feel better, go for it man! I certainly won't deny that it's unhealthy, I just find the deliberate...

never mind, I'm trying to give you advice, not have a chemistry/politics discussion. Anyway, the point is, it'd be a real shame if you went through all that time in college and then dropped. So keep doing as you're doing it - taking it by chunks of time, looking at things rationally. I admire that in you - also a good way to beat suicidal urges, looking at things rationally. There's always something worth living for