Am I a lesbian or bisexual? I'm a 19 year old female and I've just come to terms with the fact that I do like girls. I didn't even truly realize it until recently. My whole life I've been with a guy. I've kissed them, dated them, had sex with them, but I've never felt connected to any guy I've ever met. Somethings always been missing. Since I was about 13 I started watching porn, and have always been into lesbian porn. I can't "get off" watching anything else. But I thought this was just a normal thing that everyone else does and I've never thought too much else about it. Around 16, I started thinking about what it'd be like if I were with my best friends at the time who were girls. I never went through with it because I knew they wouldn't bat an eye at something like that, but whenever I was around them I got so aroused in a way. I thought they were not only attractive physically but their personality was as well. Then I came around Tumblr (a blogging site) & started following these lesbian blogs and I realized then how open some people were and it made me a little less afraid to accept that I really do like girls. This past year, I haven't been with anyone (guy or girl) for over 10 months because I don't know what I want anymore. Ever since I can remember I've always been with guys, but recently I've been much more open to being with a girl. Not just physically, but in a relationship as well. I've had crushes on some guys physically but I don't know if that's normal. I've never been with a girl or kissed a girl or haven't met a girl yet that I truly have a crush on mainly because I was always too afraid of the idea. Like I said before something has always been missing when I'm with a guy, and I can't shake away my feelings for girls anymore. I don't know what to do.
You were watching porn at 13? Geeze..... Don't "do" anything, if you meet a female that you feel like being with and she feels the same way, it will happen.
Take the best from both genders and enjoy your choice. Most of us can't do that. Remember life is short and dead is a long, long time. Live your life as you wish.
I'll tell you what all my friends told me when I came out, DON'T try to put yourself in a certain group just be with who you want to be with.
