I called a shelter today.

thanks for getting it. really. <333

anyone abused starts to appear insane. it dont mean u have to stay insane tho. ill be ok. i hope. fuck I WILL

 

None of that doubting stuff.

Change your life homegirl.

 

ill really be ok if i do this?
like better then ever?
i hope n pray. cause it seems so hard but im GOIN,

 

Do it.

Now. Pack up leave. Things will only get better if you take control of your life. It's your life Trish. And this is the way to make it better.

Stick up for yourself. Go now!

 

yeah get off the internet and just go.
it's an adventure.

 

im almost ready to go. pray for me. maybe ill come back a diff person.

 

just be brave and stick it out. It will be worth it in the end

 

Good luck T

 

You're ready now, unless you have a bit more to pack.

You will be back here sometime, and we'll all be proud of you. And it won't matter because you'll know you can live through anything. After you do this, you'll shine.

Do it now. Forget this place. What are you missing?

You're friends here will all pray for you. And you'll succeed.

Change. Now.

 

dammit lode, you are ridiculously awesome and supportive

trish... i teared up reading this last little bit. i hope you really did get out, and get to a place that will damage you less. i really want nothing more for you than to be in a safe environment where you can figure yourself out and grow into the amazing women we all know you can be

 

No kidding, way to go Lode, I wish I had someone like you when I was going threw that

 

that sucks buy a gun

 

Lode you rock.
positivity pwns all.

 

update. i guess i somehow crashed for two hours. and when i woke up he was sitting on the couch which sucked. im gonna go talk to my neighbor though..scott. its prolly the BEST real friend i have that is in a position that he CAN help me out.

 

funny Ive been saying the word pattern alot lately too..
just things going on in my own life..

 

i think i know two places i could go n will go to one of them. thanks scott n brian.

 

trish, i been stoppin by all day...
and this is finally getting to me.
i know the horse is decomposing, but i have strayed from really saying anything serious to you for a while trish, and this is the last:
you need to seriously step-up and take action.
MAN THE FUCK UP.
trish, you have capacity to overcome this, you dont even know how long it has been now since i have touched an opiate... point being, if i can kick a BAD morphine habit, then there is hope for you...
idk, i cant say anything that hasnt been said. this is all up to you, and this all is too short to keep up with the same 'pattern'.
the most discerning thing is, i know you can do it, you know can do it, hipforums knows you can do it... but you are not.
step up.

 

i didnt touch dope though i had plans yesterday. i was sooo close to being like "fuck it" but for real, fuck heroin.

anyways im movin to georgia as soon as i get the gas money

 

had plans. a new n better hook up n i let it ride... just sat here til it was too late to do it... it sucks. i love opiates but i HAD to ride it out n that's word on me.