I am going to kill myself.

But that's the point, he's not giving it a go. He's resigned himself to the fact that humanity is horrible and there's nothing he can do at the age of 15. When in fact, whilst the world can be a shitty place, we all have things to be thankful for. We have life, and life is what you make of it.

 

As for the doctor, I once had to wait for 3 and a half hours with terrible headache caused by an alergic reaction, so, been there, done that.

If your mother is depressed too, maybe she will understand you better now. But please don't tell her you hate having her in the room with you, I mean how would that make you feel, or should I say how does that make you feel?
You say that nobody understands you, but now you have the chance to be the one who understands. Use your pain to help her and she will try to help you. You could be each others backbone in this.
Oh, and to answer your question: I've been feeling crappy myself today, I had to drive for 3 hours in a disguisting train and now I'm finally home.
It will be better tommorow for both of us, you'll see, you just have to recognize it.
Much love from me...

 

I hate having my mother in the room because I can't tell the doctor I am depressed. She thinks that depression isin't a problem. She thinks its something you have to deal with. She doesn't understand it and there would be no point in talking to her about it because she doesn't understand it. She went to the doctor once and told him and he said "Why did you decide to be depressed?". If I told her I was depressed she would NOT understand.

Actually, I did tell her I was depressed awhile back. I just now remembered it. You know what she did? She blew it off. Then when I told her I thought it was a serious problem she said it wasn't. She absolutely does not have the ability to understand. That is why she is living depressed today.

Its the stupid doctors fault and societys fault for being fucking dubious to the subject. It really pisses me off.

 

I think the focus point is not that we "have a life" but like you said, "what we make of it". If we aren't accomplishing anything, are not happy, have family, friends, peace if mind then we are merely existing. What's the point. A lot of people think that the teenager years are a great time when you're coming into your own, boy into man, girl into woman, but i't not always that easy. When i was 15 i was terribly unhappy but i realised that's not what i wanted so i got pissed off I said "fuck it" and became determined that that wasn't going to be my life anymore. This kid here, has more strength than he realises and with this strenth he will overcome his demons, he just has to make the decision to do it. He still has hope

 

Ignore problems?

 

then maybe its up to you to address the problem. It sounds like since society and your parents havent solves your problems, your third option is suicide. Maybe instead you should figure out how to solve your own problems, if no one else cares to help.

 

It's hard to believe that the only person this kid has left is himself :-( I can't help but think that he's been failed. At the end of the day it's up to us to make a decision but we all need support. Don't forget, he's only 15. He's a child and so it can't be expected that he's going to deal with this in the same way an adult would. He might not know how.

 

New Mexico:
Michelle Linn-Gust
Co-Chair, New Mexico Suicide Prevention Coalition
PO Box 3631
Albuquerque, NM 87190
Tel: 505-401-9382 or 505-266-3134
Fax 505/266-1978
michelle@nmsuicideprevention.org

 

Please use that information bro.^^^

 

Fingers crossed.


Don't give up. I know how you feel and trust me, there is a way back however hopeless it may seem

 

If your going to die anyway why not just kill yourself right now? Because life is worth living and is enjoyable? I am getting fat. The world is so messed up. Just work and bordem. I am bad at doing things. I hate school. I should kill myself. I should kill myself. I should kill myself.

 

Yes, exactly because of that, but also to help others by your experiences. C'mon, things simply CAN'T be that bad, and if they are you're just have to work even harder to change them to better. But you can do it, I'm sure of it!

If you hate it so much, then quit and try to learn in some other way, like Internet, books or ask someone for help. Don't be afraid to do what you want, just be sure you do no harm to others. My croatian teacher always says that FREEDOM IS AVAILABLE TO EVERYONE, EVEN YOU , but you have to be ready to take the RESPOSABILITY and that's the whole wisdom my friend!

NO YOU SHOULD NOT!!!! And I really want to help you,and I bet that all the other guys here do!

 

So why haven't you done it yet then? All this talk about it and you're still here. Ask yourself why

 

you actually want to die, why?? so like ur young and you hate life and you say if your gonna die anyway why not do it now?? no one will ever know the purpose of life so theres no correct way of living is there, but still people live it and its not as if your gonna feel like that forever is it! if your bored why not save some money up and do somethin, change jobs perhaps, just try doin somethin bout it

 

I've missed two days of school. That is really bad.

 

bad enough to kill yourself? lol..

 

I would say this is the best response I have heard yet. Take it easy dood.

 

Noone has the right to choose when they die since they never got the right to choose when to live. You don't even know whats on the otherside yet alone whats in this physical plane since you aren't happy. Search around.

 

Humans may understand everything and comprehend little.

 

Hey, I'm not going to tell you how to think, how to be, how to see things ect. I just want to let you know that I know you are capable of washing the negativity away. Everythig takes time.