What made you realize that you have a big one (or a small one)? I measured myself in college (6.5 long, 5.75 girth), but didn't have anything to compare it to (pre-Internet). Two different college girlfriends mentioned how big I was, but I assumed they were just being nice. I thought I was just average. I had trouble penetrating my first real gf, but assumed that it was because she was a virgin. It took several attempts before it would fit. Condoms broke during sex, but I thought they were just cheap. Years later when I had sex with the woman who is now my wife she showed up on the date with lube, but didn't say why. I now know it was because she thought I wouldn't fit in her. Once I could look up stats online, I saw that I am well above the 90th percentile in overall size especially due to thickness. It was quite the ego boost and explained the behavior of some past partners. I wish I had known earlier in life and it would have given me more sexual confidence.
You really should avoid psychedelic drugs. The hallucinations you’re describing are hilarious. But that’s still bad for your brain.
When I actually started seeing other guys naked in the showers at basic training. And then reinforced further after having gay/bi sexual experimentation involving male friends. It became obvious that I was bigger than most of the ones I saw in person. Girls always told me it was big, but I never believed them because I assume they say that to any guy they are with. When other guys start telling you it’s big, then you can believe it.
The first time for me was when I was 15 she was 18 we took a chance and I fucked her in a park keepers hut. When she pulled my shorts down she giggled and said that l was enormous