horrific salvia trip

There's nothing inherently wrong with being a shoe... but when you're made to become a shoe without the "mentality" of a shoe, it's a little disconcerting. What little consciousness of my "being" as I remembered it before I left reality was being told that my new existence is to be an inanimate object, and everything before that meant nothing. I mean, it wasn't so cut and dry like that, I was fusing with ALL inanimate objects, some familiar, some just the state of being inanimate. But when a tiny portion of your human mind is left, it does NOT want to spend eternity as a shoe, especially when you have all these questions and none are being answered, it's just pushing you and ripping pieces from you, you relinquish all control and it's the most helpless and despairing feeling in the world...

 

if I go into neuroscience (which I plan to) salvia would be the first drug I'd study extensively.

 

Yes I know what you are talking of, I had a very similar experience, you are clinging to the idea that this reality is one that is better than the one you experienced, when in fact, the other one is MUCH more real. :sunny:

It all goes back to how much you surrender to the experience, and the amount of humility you bring. The Salvia essence is much much much bigger and stronger and smarter and more powerful than your consciousness, and will show you many many things if you allow Her to.

You were trying to cling to your identity as a human meatsack too much, which caused all your discomfort, if you had fully surrendered, it would have blown your fucking mind.

When I took that rip of 20x then that balloon of nitrous, my consciousness was literally dissolved as I sat back in the chair. Everything went black and I was given an image of everything happening all at once, and I KNEW that I WAS this image, and that it was me.

At that point everything kind of went round when "I" was accelerated to the speed of light.

And thats as close to putting that experience into words.

But for that split second..

I was THERE.

If you catch my drift.