Hi Kids.

ya meditation is awesome. every morning when i can, i take a good 30 minutes, the afterglow is just great, and my days are amazing. no wonder research tells "buddhists are very happy people"

 

I should probably be doing some meditation with the terrible demon I'm having enter and exit my body. Yea, I tried getting a knife and cutting open my stomach and pulling him out. Didn't work... He wouldn't let me pick up the knife.

 

Happy. High on life.......... and Budda at the moment.

 

sunshine man... youre 15 and youre schizo, thats kinda freaky.. but its weird how you always seem to talk normally on the web.. schizo's usually believe in everything they hear and see.. somethings kinda weird in your descriptions.

 

Try and hold a conversation with me in person. Can't judge a person by how they are on the internet.

You might notice I tend to talk to "myself" and randomly laugh for no reason.

 

i know man... youre schizo i believe you. its just ... weird at 15, thats kinda early... my uncle was schizo and he was dilusional, i doubt he wouldve been able to talk on the web

 

Yea... I spent a while in an insane asylum when younger. Wouldn't be too surprised if that helped trigger it. Along with long bouts of depression, unexplained violent rages, drug abuse... I was very delusional until I realized insanity was at my door... And you could say I still am.. I wouldn't know. Some people call these delusions, but dunno: Believed for a while no one except me was real... Believed I was the next messiah... (Still believe) The world has a conspiracy against me and I've gotta do my best to work around it, but everything I do will curse me later in life... I believe there's a demon after me and at points he'll control me, which explains why sometimes I'm very violent thinking when the real me is a very peaceful person. Like I said, I tried cutting open my stomach and pulling the demon out, but he started controlling me and wouldn't let me grab the knife.

 

man that really sucks. ive had depressions, a bit of feelings youve described, but never that much delusional. and its gone now. just hang in there, hopefully your feet will come back firmly on the ground. and for your sake, dont do dope dude. dope is what triggered my insane states of perception once in a while.

 

Hence why I've quit psychedelics.. And to keep the anxiety away, I've stopped smoking weed.

 

stay like that then.. prolly for the best

 

Wow man
You're cool and hope that all that shit might eventually go away or maybe you would get better ...
Hold on...

 

my day was quite shity, a lot because i think i got fucked by the manager at a job after got fired, i still didnt got paid, 70$ they ow me, not much but i'm broke and 70$ will make me happy, it's the second time i got fucked by a manager, last time was in the "subway", i felt i was used


oh and by the way you're god damn pretty (YouWantFriesWithThis)

i dont have the shirt but i have this poster, and the album

 

I hate these chilly spring days with a passion....

Though I just took some xanax so I should sleep like a log tonight.

 

i know nobody gives a fuck but it seems the best place to tell this lol

they finally called me and i'm suposed to get paid next week

it makes my day, she seemed honest, anyways it's not a poor company it would be bad for them if i sew them in court haha (lol for 70$)