hey what's going on?

so you guys really dont think i can quit and stay quit on my own willpower?

 

I'd suspect you would go back to drinking lots, or taking benzos

Its not impossible to do on your own, as many have done it, but given your tendencies I think it would be far more successful to get away for a while and completely clean up

 

personally, no i don't.

however, your concern should be on yourself. you need to do something to stay clean FOR YOURSELF. we can write all day, time after time; but it comes down to what you really want.

i think your major problem that you need to focus on is not going back ot old habits...you know what its like to be clean for a while, but you always end up going back to old habits for whatever reason.

you can continue to chop the branches off, but they'll just regrow. chop the root and rid yourself of this. the root problem is somewhere, you need to do the deep searching to find it

 

Famous Opium Users

Marcus Aurelius - The Roman Emperor initially used the drug for medicinal purposes, but likely became addicted to it at some point during his reign over Rome.
Charles Dickens – The author of A Tale of Two Cities and A Christmas Carol was addicted to opium for many years and used the drug heavily right up to the time of his death (by massive stroke).
Bela Lugosi – The star of hundreds of early horror films was a frequenter of several underground opium dens and also used morphine excessively during his life.
Florence Nightengale – It was discovered after her death that the most famous nurse who ever lived was a notorious opium users.

Famous Heroin Users
John Belushi – One of the greatest comedians of his generation, Belushi died of an accidental overdose on a powerful speedball – a dangerous mixture of heroin and cocaine.
Kurt Cobain – Lead singer of the band Nirvana, Cobain used heroin to escape from the stress brought on by sudden fame. Eventually, would succumb not to an overdose, but a self-inflicted gunshot wound in his Washington home.
Janis Joplin – The iconic singer of the 1960's was a major heroin user. She was forced to cancel shows often because she was too heavily under the influence to take the stage.
Billie Holiday – Arguably one of the greatest torch song singers who ever lived, Holliday was never able to overcome her addiction to heroin. Also used opium while on the road appearing in sold-out concerts.
River Phoenix – The up-and-coming young actor died of a heroin-speedball overdose outside The Viper Room nightclub in Hollywood. Phoenix was on his way to becoming a true A-list star in the film industry when he died.

Famous Painkiller Users
Rush Limbaugh – After rumors would not subsist, the conservative talk show host was forced to admit he had a severe prescription drug addiction, including OxyContin and Vicodin.
Carrie Fisher – Screenwriter and Star Wars Trilogy star Fisher admitted in her autobiography that she had abused prescription painkillers repeatedly throughout her long and illustrious career.
Elvis Presley – The King of Rock and Roll died in the mid 1970's from a drug overdose. An autopsy later found massive amounts of various prescription painkillers in his system when he died at his Graceland home.
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LUCKY~at least she's in good company with all the above people

 

Fuck no. You need serious help. Sorry, but you need long term help.

 

Slim to no chance. Addicts very rarely get clean without help.

 

Well, get mad at me all you want guys but I decided it's doing a partial hospitalization thing... it's about 20 hours a week.... so it's not like I'll be doing nothing but I'll get to sleep at home and not miss my birthday. That'll be for a month but I'll be doing 12 hours a week for a month and then 8. So three months total and I won't miss home. It's better then nothing cause I WAS gonna do nothing before...

 

Stay away from that 'friend' jess of yours too.

 

Yeah I had already planned on it.

 

Whoever fights monsters should see to it that in the process he does not become a monster. And when you look long into an abyss, the abyss also looks into you.
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Lucky~the above is your very own signature in that forum site u started about 3 years ago...called "Breathe"
I think u started it when u got in a little trouble here on hf, then for whatever reason u were drinking alot then & someone got mad at u and messed up your forum site and deleted almost everything.

 

Wow. You are so fucking stupid.

 

I hope you do.

But if I were to take a bet, the odds wouldn't be on your side.

If you would do it on willpower alone, you would have already have done it.

You need help. That's not an insult. Simply good advice offered from a friend.

 

well if that's what you are going to do, its better than nothing

I just hope you try to change your environment as much as possible even though its familiar

 

haha that's so weird that you saved or remembered that. lol.

 

why? because i think partial hospitalization will work? cause it's a lot better then nothing... cause im already almost done withdrawling and that is what id prefer to do.... i think it's a lot less stupid then doing nothing.... plus it takes three months, not just one. PLUS the person i live with doesn't do any drugs or alcohol and won't buy them for me anyways.... just don't apprieciatte being called stupid cause that is what i chose to do.

 

This feels like a deja vu of a couple years ago. Whew, I am shocked though esp since I don't know all the drama on here anymore....but wow, it's just like turning on a soap opera after 3 years and understanding what's going on right away.

 

well, what a surprize... most people that have addictions will have the same thing happen more then once. like omg it's shocking news. hahaha. for real. some of you people amaze me truly.

 

Ari, that doesn't help.

 

As a former counselor in a methadone clinic I can tell you methadone absolutley gets you high.
Also, any ethical counselor will not give you methadone unless you've been an opiate addict for at least two years.
You need in-patient treatment, Suboxone, a life-skills coach, a therapist, and an employment specialist.
You have no routine to your life and that seems to be your problem. Most people without kids, wake-up, go to work, come home, do something with their family, eat at normal meal times, have responsibilities that they need to get up at a decent time for.
It is proven that people with a lack of routine are most likely to become addicts.
Do you have any goals right now? Have your dreams faded? DO you just want to play the victim for the rest of your life? You know that's not a real job. Get help. I don't have sympathy for you because you put yourself in this situation. I work with people who have had it so much harder than you and go on to give back to society.

 

Also, if you take methadone with benzos you can easily die.