So my boy left last week. He had to go back to Ireland where he's from. We had gotten so close, spent so much time together, had fallen so in love. I feel like someone has ripped my heart out. I'm numb, and when I'm not numb, I'm bawling my fucking eyes out. Sobbing, so hard that it makes me gag...so hard I can't breathe. I don't know what to do. We've talked on the phone, we text message one another every day. I can't do it. I need him back here. I've never been so sad in my life. Never felt pain like this before. I want it to stop. What am I gonna do?