help please now

I can't say I know a lot about emotion, mine were locked away for four years and even before that (and now in the aftermath) they are somewhat crippled and different, but try learning to manipulate those, the entire stanislaviskyan acting method is built around manipulating your emotions, reliving and amplifying or softening emotions and then proccesing them into a form that resembles the character you are playing on stage, you can try something like that via association (I cry every time I hear this little piggy because a play I was in years ago, really weirds people out) but if you do that
1. you can act
2. you can control your emotions in any circumstance which is very useful whenever something bad happens (pet dies, loss of loved one stuff like that)
3. You can throw most people off if you really need to, awsome trick.

 

my dad does that too. effer.

i dunno about even telling a shrink though... lots of psychiatrists have dismissed patients who cut themselves a lot

 

my mom made me an appointment for the 22.
i think i can hold out until then.

edit: no, i dont think i can hold out until then. oh well.

 

hold out on what?

 

cutting

 

Look acetonephish, hold on , you are having a very bad time but you will be able to get thru especially if you talk to a psychiatrist .

Remember that what you say to the doctor , you don't have to say it to your parents ...

Look it's in 10 days ...
Hold on

 

heh, yeah. the weirdest friggen thing happened to me to today...

Yesterday, i told ralph about cutting myself. he promised he wouldnt tell anyone but he went ahead and told holly. then they started hugging me and shit, and they started talking about ways to have my time occupied so i wont have a moment to myself to hurt myself
hollys making me get rid of all my depressing CDs, including my MARILYN MANSON . shes also making me go over to her house every day after school when she doesnt work, and ralph and holly are coming up with a way to watch me on the weekends. there goes my life
fridays, holly gets me.
saturdays, ralph gets me.
sundays, they switch.

lmfao...
im also supposed to call them whenever i feel like im about to cut myself, or feel like hurting myself.
and theres more :&
hollys making me go on a blind date with this guy named Chris who is a sophomore. Hes turning 16. She says I need a caring boyfriend, blah blah blah.

i think all of my cuts are getting infected, too. or something like that.
and if i do end up going on a date with this guy im not going to know what to wear, as my arms are covered in cuts. . .

 

:hugg: oh shelly....


this is the kind of junk that sometimes happens around me and my friends, and everything gets all degrassi/O.C.

 

that's an amazing lil schedule thing. i wish i had friends like that...haha

silly thing is, i know EXACTLY how you feel. going thru this thing with my mom where she won't let me do anything with mnyself ( pierce, dread, draw upon, gauge) and it's pissing me off real bad. i've considered cutting myself so many times in the last 3 weeks it's just ridiculous. i would go ahead and talk to the psychiatrist if i was you, and forget about the whole affair with the the parentals. sort out your issues with the psych and see what it has to say about this whole thing, and relate that back to your parents. or not.