I don't have any particular books to point you to with shamanism. I had a few things saved to my old computer but it crashed. Shamanism and the journey into it are lonely most of the time. You help people and learn things that others never will but you find yourself in a place where there is no councelling for the councelor and people may not relate to you although you can tap right into them. There is a ritual that you can find on line called the rose cross ritual. I have been told that it can help calm and shield your energy and bring peace. I haven't tried myself only because I was performing the lesser banishing ritual of the pentagram which does something similar in that it cleanses your energy and aura but it lights you up in the astral and every nasty thing there can suddenly see you. It also raised my energy so I that it gave me a sort of roid rage and I had to discontue that ritual. I am gun shy myself about the rose cross after my experience with the lesser banishing ritual, although the rose cross is said to "cloak" you in the astral and hide your signal so to speak. You may want to look into yourself and decide if it's for you. In the meantime I use sea salt or black witches salt at my windows and doors. I always keep white sage on hand for smudging. Chinese wash for cleaning my floors and walls and I ruthlessly cut people from my life that bring toxic energy with them and as bad as that sounds I am happier for it. Empathy can make you want to help most people out but sometimes those people will take that help and dump their mess into you and take your positivity with them and leave you. If you ever find yourself feeling like something like that has happened to you, I would suggest an herbal cleansing bath, hyssop is a good herb for this and there are places online to by such a bath. Also never dwell on those times when it happens, let it go and cut ties asap and don't accept the curse energy into you. Those few things should get and empath like yourself through some tough times. Good luck man.
I don't have any particular books to point you to with shamanism. I had a few things saved to my old computer but it crashed. Shamanism and the journey into it are lonely most of the time. You help people and learn things that others never will but you find yourself in a place where there is no councelling for the councelor and people may not relate to you although you can tap right into them. There is a ritual that you can find on line called the rose cross ritual. I have been told that it can help calm and shield your energy and bring peace. I haven't tried myself only because I was performing the lesser banishing ritual of the pentagram which does something similar in that it cleanses your energy and aura but it lights you up in the astral and every nasty thing there can suddenly see you. It also raised my energy so I that it gave me a sort of roid rage and I had to discontue that ritual. I am gun shy myself about the rose cross after my experience with the lesser banishing ritual, although the rose cross is said to "cloak" you in the astral and hide your signal so to speak. You may want to look into yourself and decide if it's for you. In the meantime I use sea salt or black witches salt at my windows and doors. I always keep white sage on hand for smudging. Chinese wash for cleaning my floors and walls and I ruthlessly cut people from my life that bring toxic energy with them and as bad as that sounds I am happier for it. Empathy can make you want to help most people out but sometimes those people will take that help and dump their mess into you and take your positivity with them and leave you. If you ever find yourself feeling like something like that has happened to you, I would suggest an herbal cleansing bath, hyssop is a good herb for this and there are places online to by such a bath. Also never dwell on those times when it happens, let it go and cut ties asap and don't accept the curse energy into you. Those few things should get and empath like yourself through some tough times. Good luck man.
I can relate to your story, because I've felt the same, only not with such clarity as you see it. In my humble opinion, the fact that you bestow such self-diagnosed honors as 'enlightened' and 'empathic' are the problem for you. I can only say what I do, and that is to just view myself as a ordinary human being, because when you say you are something (such as 'enkightened', which I have done during my life) I immediately felt like I was thinking like an enlightened being and not as myself. As if something else was inside me that directed my thoughts into one stream. Tey to float on several streams at the same time, this is what I do, and I am quite happy in my life right now. I hope you'll figure it out, peace and understanding to you <3
