im kristy. im 33, been alone my whole life. never had a date, never had a kiss. bullied and made fun of by kids and teachers in school that made become suicidal and turned me into a anti social reject. I would cut my wrists at night and go to sleep hoping I would bleed out in the middle of the night and wake up in a better place. I grew up but still cry myself to sleep every night with the occasional suicide attempt. Ive thought about going to a bad neighborhood hoping I would get raped, just so I can atleast say somebody wants me for something, even if it is that. I feel dead inside. not sure if this is mental problems or extreme lonliness. but whatever it is, you can laugh at it. everybody else does when I tell them . anyway, hello from here
I think you will find plenty of sympathetic people here, i'm sure your life will turn around soon enough....wishing you loads of luck...and welcome.
wow....don't you have anything incredibly sad to say?...holy shit girl....welcome to the site...try smoking some weed...it always helps every situation...
1. Personally, I won't laugh at this. I don't find that kind of stuff funny. When it comes this topic of conversation, people tend to have one of three reactions. They react with cruelness, they react with pity, or they react with ignoring the person altogether. But, my reaction is like, "Dude, yea... life sucks, blows, and rams you up the ass and not like the good ways that you want to be sucked, blown, and rammed up the ass." In other words, I know how you feel, it fucking sucks. 2. I think the desire to die is a personal choice. I just hope you come to a decision that best satisfies you. 3. I think self-mutilation is like any other vice, such as drinking alcohol, doing drugs, etc. I will admit, it's not one that is socially accepted, so you can't get together with your friends and have a "cut day", but it's a vice like any other. It's something that helps you get by and makes you feel good. That's okay, at least I think so. Also, I have a vice too.
