hello all.

You seem to be in a better frame of mind here. Good. I encourage you to follow through on your excellent decision to seek some help. Thank you for taking the time to post this as it is a bit more reassuring. I do sincerely hope that you can not only get through this but can implement changes in how you process things so it's less likely to recur.

At such a time that you feel comfortable I can either close or delete this for you. I cannot guarantee that every response will be in total support of your immediate challenge but the honesty and restraint that was the general tone of the response here says a lot for this community and certainly shows that your respect for these folks is justified.

Peace

 

I don't get why people would think about this kind of thing when there are so many things in life to do, and so many drugs to do them on!

 

You've had to have been at that level of depression at one point to fully understand the feelings and logic that lead to it

 

I'm so glad you are getting help. Keep it up, you'll be okay!

 

I have been really depressed before when I was like 10 years old. Tbh, I think I "thought" about my option of suicide. I just thought to myself, wow, I have so many more years in life to live, and I am unrestricted to be anyone I want to be. From that point on I just got happier and happier. So yeah if you think about it, logic is on your side.