Having A Really Bad Night

don't know what to do

 

I'm sorry to hear. You say it's night so probably too late to go for a walk. Maybe some meditation or quiet time. Sometimes just cranking some loud music helps me too.

Feel better soon.

 

That incident brought up in another thread? You may need to talk to someone about that, not good to try to bottle something like that up inside.


If that has nothing to do with it, sorry.



Be strong.

 

yesterday brought up a lot of stuff i thought i had got rid off.
now it's all back.

 

Take care... Please.

 

I think Ty is right about talking about it.

Do you want to tell us more? What about talking to a therapist?

 

i can't stand psychologists.
just can't take my mind of it all

 

It's hard to know how to reply with so little information. Do you want to say what happened? Is it ok if I look for this other thread?

 

he killed himself. and i couldn't bring him back.
reminds me of everything I've worked so hard to change.
just can't do it anymore

 

I don't know who he is, or other circumstances of his suicide. Sounds like you tried to save him though. Trying to save someone is an equally heroic act whether successful or not.

If someone is determined to kill themselves, there's really nothing that you can do about it. Even if you did save him, it's very likely that he just would have succeeded in killing himself at a later time.

If he could speak to you now, I bet he would probably thank you for trying, and tell you not to worry so much.

If you are doing emergency medical work, one of the things that you have to accept is that you can't save everyone. Being able to accept that there is 1% that you can't save is what allows you to save the other 99%.

 

Tipsy, do you have any spiritual connections?

I know therapists can be a drag but - What about a nice Chakra clearing and releasing of things that do not serve you? Could you find a Shaman, or Preistess, etc.

 

I have a friend who is weighing heavily on my mind and I feel like i can't reach her. I bring this up because i want you to know even if you feel like you're alone or like you need to suffer alone there is probably someone out there who worries about you and would love to listen to you and share some of your burden.

 

I know i will get ostracized for even mentioning it, but prayer always works for me. Sorry to hear of your tribulation.

 

What's the point?
He was probably right.
Don't want to have to think about him anymore or have to think about why I'm here.

 

Tipsy
I am sorry you are having to go through this. Suicide is a selfish act because of the damage it does to those who try to save the person and for loved ones the person leaves behind. Be well and remember to take care of yourself.

 

Tipsy, When You Feel Comfortable Perhaps If You Told Us Who He Was And

Why He Did What He Did We Could Offer You Better Advice.....



Cheers Glen.

 

It's just triggering.

 

PTSD...triggers....I completely understand.


You need to get busy when this is happening...busy your hands by organizing things, work a puzzle, paint. Make yourself do something.

Then...change your mind. You can do it. When you think about these things, push them away with all your might. Replace any negative thoughts with positive ones. How long do it do it? Until it works. Have a mantra you can say over and over.

Big hugs

 

Wish I could help, but frankly I don't know how or what to say either. Newbie one says some good things though

 

Usually when we feel least able to talk about something is the time that we need to the most.

Even if you call into a help line where it is anonymous it would be a good thing.

Take care of yourself and as hard as it is, it will pass given time.

Big hugs to you.