Have You Ever Written A Book?

Or even entertained the idea of writing a book?

I had a pretty vivid dream last night that I was in the process of writing a book. I can remember so many little details of the book I was writing, down to the time the main character was getting up in the morning, how he was feeling, ect.

Now I am entertaining the idea of actually writing this book that I was dreaming about writing. It would be a pretty random project to take on right now, considering what my other focuses are at the moment.

I can't say I'm not intrigued, though. It could be a lot of fun. I am a sucker for fiction anyways, and spend several hours a week (sometimes even a day) with my nose in a book, so what difference does it make if I am reading or writing said book?

 

Yes I'm writing one. It not far off finished now.
But to be honest, the idea of giving people enjoyment has put me off. : (
So I may well burn it instead.

I don't need the money. Infact I never wrote it for the money.

#fuck people

 

Yes I've had a few dreams like that where I think "hmm could use that one". Notepads by the bed are handy.

 

Don't burn it.

If you don't want to share your work with people, then you could self publish your book (once it is finished) so you have a copy. Don't burn it, though.

I feel sad that you feel this way about people. There are lots of good people in the world, and maybe you publishing your book would be a way to connect with other people in a positive way. It seems like you are missing the experience of connecting with people in a positive way....

 

Nothing of fiction. But I have made a design portfolio.

The idea of getting a book published sounds difficult as I'm sure publishing companies typically reject hundreds of new authors all the time. Yet it's not impossible. If you have the ambition, you can publish and mass produce the book yourself.

 

Yes, I'm supposed to write a book.... Fuck all if I know what it's supposed to be about though.

 

I feel like you out of everyone here would be the one to write the most interesting book....maybe I just feel this way because I find you so interesting and mysterious and hard to get to know.

You could write a book about Erin....

 

I am in the process of writing a book. Well, that is slightly untrue. I have written a few chapters over the course of several years. I put it down for a couple of years because life happened and zapped my creative juices. I recently read over everything i've written and thought it was pretty good. I'm not the greatest at plot development but i do think my writing has a distinct voice - not trying to brag, just sharing because realizing it isnt a complete pile of shit has encouraged me to be more consistent in writing on a regular basis.

So now i'm trying to write every day even if i'm not feeling it. It is a difficult process, and when i force myself to write when my energy isnt there and i have writers block it does come out pretty lackluster and i have to go back and edit a lot later.

I am pretty confident in my writing though. I know getting published is a long and difficult process but i feel like if i can at least finish it i'll eventually find someone who likes it enough to to publish it. And if not i'll go the self publishing route

 

Create Space is a good option for self publishing. They offer a print on demand service, and will also promote your book on Amazon. I think you get 60% of the profits, and you wouldn't have to worry about having 500+ of your book stacked in boxes at your house.

 

I have a couple of short fiction publications and recently started working on a novel, but it is a long, slow process. I have maybe 3/4 half finished short stories that I need to finish up/get sent off as well but I'm procrastinating on them. With each, I lost interest/faith in the ideas halfway through.

This is part of the reason that I started the novel, It is more of a writing excersize than an intended finished piece. I can work out the structure, characters and individual scenes in advance and then fill in the blanks in any order I like, this means that I f i get bored or stuck on a particular scene I can consult the plan, write a different scene entirely and then come back refreshed to my original scene. The problem with short fiction is there is nowhere to go for a constructive break if you lose interest in the central premise. I'm sure I'll get bored of writing the novel at some point and go back and finish the shorts. Hooray for tricking your brain into being constructive.

In terms of publishing, its a bit of a pipe dream, but new avenues are opening up all the time. I went down a fairly traditional route in getting a few short fiction pubs done first Before considering a longer piece (I still consider short fiction to be valid and in many ways superior to long form fiction, rather than just "a warm-up"). I have a friend who serialises his novel online, which is a great way to create buzz and attract attention from publishers.

If you are considering writing a book then you should absolutely go for it. Nothing may come of it, but there's nothing worse than a half-formed idea nudging at the edge of your brain.

 

"I'm writing a book"

"Neither am I"

- Private Eye magazine

 

I could write porn, the kind that sells in Europe, not America.

 

TBH I think I will burn it.

Its not meant vindictively towards people in general. I don't act manevolently towards others. More of a karma type thing.
I feel like I've been drained empty. Analogous to having something stolen from me. Maybe it will teach me not to be profligate with my energy. Or whatever.

I think my connection with people will be far more pragmatic, a trade off of interests in the future. No expectation, no investment, easy exit. Its better than kidding myself or being had for a prick.

I can handle the rats and the sharks and the snakes, I know the nature of the beast.
You say there are lots of good people. But its the "good" people who do the harm, to me anyway. I know human nature and thats when I let my guard down.
Nowadays I see the good people I know as "the ones who haven't done bad things to me yet". Ok not all of them will, but SOME will.

My last writing will be a letter to someone. Maybe I'll burn that as well LOL. Who knows. Fuck knows... : (

 

You said that you have been known to be the life of a party.

Could all of this sadness be the result of a drug or alcohol low? I know when I rip it up at a party, I definitely feel down for a few days afterwords. What goes up, must come down.

 

No my drug phase is over. When I was coming down, I was always fine. Because it was a surreal, physical low. I'm not a giant drinker now either.

I think anyone who experiences a betrayal or whatever like me, will be resentful, changed even.. I suppose my difference is that I don't see the point in volunteering to be kicked in the balls again.I think any girl who has me "buzzing" is trying to get into my head. And if you want to get into someone's head its because you want some egotistical fix. To "play" someone. Something like that. There's more to it, but thats one aspect of it.

PS the female lead in the book actually had the same name ( a rare one) as the woman I was referring to. Oh and the character name was chosen 6 years before I even knew her. Hmm : /

 

Ahhh, so this all stems from a girl who dicked you around then, eh?

How do you think women feel? Do you think you are the only one who has gotten dicked around by a member of the opposite sex?

I couldn't imagine what kind of man my husband would be if HE had decided to hate all people as a result of his ex-fiancee leaving him at the alter. He definitely wouldn't be married to me, and he definitely wouldn't have the successful career that he has.

I am sorry this girl hurt you. I really am. To allow yourself to be defeated by it, though, is simply letting her win.

 

I've written three family history books and two books of other writings, all for limited distribution.

 

Erin would certainly be in the book...

 

I had a moment with a crow today while I was walking home from the gym and it made me think of you (and Erin).

 

I say "dicked around". But obviously there was much more to it.
We had a framework in place from the beginning. Supposedly to ensure there would never be any resentment, ill-will, disputes or whatever, at any point in the future, near or far. Openness, the handling of any obstacles, lots of things. Only problem is, she rode roughshod over that for quite a long time.

I pretty much hated most people before. When the "angels" stab you in the back, it makes you think "yeah I was more right than I thought". Well I really hope your marriage is one of the pure ones I keep hearing about. But all too many are full of dishonesty, tradeoffs, mediocrity, lack of respect or love. TBH I feel like saying I would rather be dead than in most people's marriages.

Would it make your husband a bad person if he did "hate" people acc to my definition? He may be more genuine/sincere, honest and dependable than most people who say how much they "love people" etc. Incidentally my hatred of people was actually channeled into building my business. As one of my closest friends chose to too. Yes, this shit has weakened my focus in recent times - again kind of vindicating my earlier views.

I don't think she "won". I think we both lost. Badly. Maybe there's a couple of cards I can play to "win" the situation. But again, if I play those, she prob isn't the person I thought she was. Supposedly (she says!) she wants to hear my feelings. And for that reason, I don't want to say a thing to her, for now anyway. Not that I'm that sure on what I would say, if I do at some point.