when ever im stoned around my friends, they act so sober, and i feel like im the only one really stoned, so i get really freaked out and get really quiet. I actually dont like to smoke with anybody anymore...i love to smoke, but nearly everyone im stoned around just freaks me out to much.
Thats how i feel when im around people who are straight or acting differently to what they usually do, and i feel like im letting them down or something. I duno, its a weird situation that i put myself in when im stoned, im trying to decide weather its paranoia or something. The only person who I actually enjoyed having around when i was stoned tho was my mate Vin, who was the only straight one at the time. It was really good to have him there as the only sane one to talk to.
I like smoking up with small groups of friends at my place, around familiar settings. Like over the holidays, all my cousins and siblings got away from the grownups over at Grandma's place and we smoked up at mom's apartment... and I got the spins really bad. That roller coaster feeling, where it's like you're not getting a lot of air when you breathe. When I get like that I have to walk around and drink water. I yawn a lot and can't sit down otherwise I spin and spin and get preoccupied with breathing again. And everyone else gets too funny for me. I can't stop But when it's my close mate Jude and I in my apartment alone, cooking or watching movies, it's all cool and I can smoke 10x more without wigging out.