Why don't I feel the same emotional draw to men as I do women? I love the feeling of subbing out to my men fuck buddies. (I have two regular). Both want nothing more than to be with me. The love my slim smooth body, shaved completely. They love my long legs that will wrap around bodies, heads, and spread as wide as they can be held open or completely closed tight and still take 8.5 cut with a 00g apadravya at full force. at least twice a week I'm getting fucked by that for a couple hours. Every which way he want's to give it. Then it's back home to my sort of boyfriend. He is 6.5 cut and thick. He generally only fuck me one of a few ways because of size limitations. Whether I'm on my back at the edge of the bed legs crossed in front around his neck to keep so tight and let him have at it, or me reverse missionary flat on my stomach with him on my back going at it. That reallys is the best for a nice banna curve 6.5 for me. I feel guilty all the time it seems like. I walk around at work, standing there in my bikini bottoms underneath loose leg jeans. If I've seen my 8.5 the night before I've got to have a pad in my tight little underwhere to keep from leaking. around a bunch of straight men who all assume I'm straight I sit there feeling like a chick I guess....I feel my ass sensitive from the night before. Lotioned smooth regularly then dry deoderant thru the day. Daydreaming about getting home to either my toys or my roomate. but yet every other day it seems I just play the perfect sub bf, But i feel no emotional attachment once or ever. I let my body and mind go with gay sex and it is the most amazing feeling ever. But I feel like I'm always doing something wrong within myself. I can't let my heart to a man the way I do a woman. And as i write this there is a 6'6 200lb wm in his early forties with a 8.5 cock being rubbed between my legs from behind as I lay on my stomach... and it's about to be put inside me again for this round 3...
