Today Old Crone you have popped into my head and heart so I've stopped to say hello, wondering how your have been. I read something about solar flares (xflares) today messing with people and pets and with our frigid weather (NE Ohio) I think maybe many have been experiencing difficulties in recent months. I feel so blessed in having so much. My partner and I had a little girl, Willow 5/2012. She is our everything, which I'm sure you understand. Though these past months have been so very trying I wonder when things might shift (not just for us, for many?) Do you have any thoughts about any of this... I have a specific question or two if you have any thoughts... We lost our very special dog at only 8 in September. I did everything I could for him for as long as I could. He had seizures and there wasn't a vet I didn't fight with for new treatments/holistic measures I didnt' try. He was an Australian Shepherd we found on the highway, I named him Balto. I heard a psychic say one day when a pet slips away they are not like people the soul follows you home. Do you have any thoughts on that? (Is it ridiculous that we lost him in September and I'm sad and cry every day and wonder if I could have found something else for him.) We rescued a dog not long before his death - I felt like I needed to so we wouldn't be alone though we had no indication yet his time would be so short and soon after he left we rescued another in his honor. I believe for me that was the best way to honor him to take another who really needed a home. So we have two dogs that we love but I just wonder what happens with the ones that leave us. On paper we've had some other trials in the recent months though in my eyes this has been the worst. We still have eachother and everything else is 'eh what are you going to do? Though my partner is struggling with things from her very distant past that her brain tucked away until we found out we were having a girl. It's helpless to not be able to help but at the same time we are thankful it's resurfaced as the knowledge has protected our little girl.. Though at the expense of my partner's simplicity of life I guess you could say. If you are still in a state near to mine I know you are having a long COLD winter... I am counting down (practically literally) to the first snow bells of spring. Sending you much love After Balto we've had handfuls of bad things - it makes me think that it's just the times we are in.
Hi ShiningStar So good to hear from you! Yes we in New York are having an adventure with very cold weather. My wood stove plugged up and had to get help cleaning it out. You never know what you are capable of until you are in the experience I think. Been busy here my Book Consuming Fire A shapeshifters Journey came out and am working on my next one titled Tapestry The Child Within. This one moves my heart because it is personal about how I grew up. Sometimes we are to close to our life path with our living we fail to see the bigger picture. As much as there are stories there is also glimpses into pages from my journals. The focus is about healing and becoming one with the journey and the love we are. Life is not just about doing as much as being one and true to our hearts. In this place everything is personal and nothing is. We come here to experience separation so we might understand Being One. We come here to grow beyond what we know so we might be more and all we are. Our life experiences and lessons help us face our self and in so doing we also face the fears we held inside. Ever Watch the Secret and What The bleep do we know. Another movie recently came out that is titled Rango. This movie shows the path of the sacred and the profane and ask "Who Are You." We are all actors on a stage seeking self awareness as much as we are searching for the meaning to evil and good, Death and life. One side of the duality will help define and give meaning to the other side, this is why we come here to experience seperation so we might understand the One. Lets get to your question. Yes the solar flares cause a fluctuation in our personal both individual and collective awareness. As we change the all changes. We need to come into a different vibration in order to understand we are the I Am within us. These flares coinside with the Mayan Calender, the Sacred Crystal skulls and many prophsies about change. Every age comes to the edge of their abyss and then must leap on faith into the unknown knowing even as we leap our beliefs and faith with change. Change is our constant guide. Things will take on a different understanding and importance in our lives as we open to the shifts of energy around us. What we focus on grows. How we see our self is how we will relate to the worlds around us. Sometimes the message is this moment is not all about us but about the vulnerability we dare to enter as our cocoons break. Congradulations! Willow will be a wonderful teacher and inspiration to you and the her world. Sorry to hear you lost your best friend Balto. When an animal or familiar crosses over they enter the greater dream and picture not holding on to the emotional attatchment to pain or suffering. They take their love and awareness they shared with you with them and are more because you loved outside your self without expectations. you loved because that is who you are. They are also aware of why they were in your life and what they had to offer you. One of the messages was that to fully love with an open heart is to also understand the embrace of letting go. They know love like our breath must come as it also goes; to stay strong is to remain open and one with the connections we enter into. So Balto is fine and will one day greet you on the other side of our present understanding. I do understand memories that remain hidden and one day sift to the surface. Sometimes the whole story or memory does not come through and our brains fill in the blanks with emotions and fears. Emotions can become addictive and deadly if we feed them. Abuse should never happen but does. Crimes are not alway violent when started. What does come to the surface is just asking us to become well and move on. In my new book I am working on I struggled with why didn't I fight back. My fears and partial memories would have me feel I was to blame. Pain and suffering haunted me until one day as I sat with the morning sun I understood a 3 year old can not and does not know how to fight against those who are the ones she should be able to trust or feel safe with. When I took the blame away and began to face my own wellness within I moved beyond the sorrows and judgements I held inside. My Emotions were no longer weapons I used against myself, out of habit, but became tools that I might help others find their way. Feed what you want to grow. Have a plan and move forward. Each one must save their own hearts and each one must learn to be love. We will only love another as we love our self. This is an individual journey as much as it is a collective one. We will always face ups and downs and some days it feels like everything neg. waited for us to be suprised. Remember everything is personal and nothing is. We all need something to believe in and until we believe without evidence we will not understand what faith has to teach us. Take each thing and see both sides of the picture. I could have lamented over the wood stove issue or the past memories or needing to get more wood when the temp was 25 or more below, and when my internet went down and lost three compputers in the last year or that my car frame broke.....and on and on But I refuse to be limited by the view. I got to help a young woman, do a reading for a total stranger who was in crisis, help a young man who has lost his way, get an adventure and education in computers and do energy healing and Reiki....and on and on. Just because the honey wagon dumped on my parade does not mean the cow was attacking me. I just imagine WOW what a lovely place for a garden. Focus on what you want to grow. Feed that with your thoughts what you want to live. Become don't just do and love from an empty and full heart so the all around you can see your light. When lost Imagine different things. because you are just waiting to find the greatest treasure of all ....a depth to your own life, heart and love that desired beauty and wonder for all. Loving you was about learning to love myself. Our sorrows and joys will offer us balance and often equal each other. That is sometimes hard to see when we have our face pushed against the mirror of seperaration and life. Remember the edge of a river does not fight with the shore line but embraces the wonder of the connections both sides come to know. So good to hear from you.
I haven't read your post past the book....I tried but went to Amazon to order the book. Sorry to the trees I ordered the print. I feel like I will need to hold it in my hands . I couldn't wait a moment to order it. Ok back to read
Hi Usedtobehoney Do not think I have ever told you but I enjoy and love how your aura changes. Oh Good to hear from you as well. Today your aura looks like a magical sunrise with mythical characters playing along the changing colors. Both magical and beautiful. This to me means you are connected, wonderful, moodie at times and most of all strong in your vulnerability. You are passionate, playful, and a lover at heart. Not to be forgotten is the side of you that smiles and says, "Just don't piss me off." lol You do not see how connected and beautiful you are because for you beauty is more than skin deep. You are wise beyond your years and would like to sometimes tell the fools to stuff a sock in it. I love the way your eyes twinkle like stars playing in the sunrise. You have a deep sacredness and sense of self you often do not show the world. Fire and Spirit are your elements and the dragon is your totem. This means you are a natural healer of the heart and soul. Still looking for where you belong even as you want to fit in. Change is your strength and laughter is your fragrance. The unanswered questions you have are waiting for the answers inside of you to line up like ducks in a row. You are alive in the storms and quiet in center of love. You remind me of a living tapestry not letting the dust collect to your heels. As I said you are Wow, Beautiful and Magical. Trust you do not mind me sharing the view I see when I meet you along our way here on H.F.
Thanks old crone as always I will it with your words and I genuinely cherish them This year when spring comes I will relish it more than ever before, this winter and last months have taught us not to take it for granted not even for a moment. Honestly, we are lucky to have the problems we have compared to the problems of many.
WOW! I do not know you, Old Crone, but your write so beautifully and eloquently.....Here is one of your quotes that I am taking with me...into dreamland tonight.... "Remember the edge of a river does not fight with the shore line but embraces the wonder of the connections both sides come to know."
Oh, and you, too, Shiningstar...I have lost a few beloved pets....and one only this passed January. It does hurt...I know....sending hugs....
Wow, old crone I always appreciate seeing you here but I can't say how timely the aura reading you shared has been for me. I really appreciate it as I've been in a dark place and just got out of that. I have just recently re-embraced my healing tendencies and I feel grateful for where I am right now but your reading resonates in a way that I've definitely been needing. I look foorward to connecting more with your words and energy. Thanks a ton. Much love.
