Getting high for the first time... NEED ADVICE!!!

Dude I bet her parents saw hipforums in their online history then saw she was on a marijuana forum. Personally I always go in the history and delete hipforums after going on so my parents dont happen to stumble upon it but it's very possible (seeing as her dad is DEA so he would probably want to be aware what's being viewed on his computer) that this could be the case.

 

It would be fucked up if her dad checked the history and saw HF and didn't like it, then he had a hand in shutting the forums down through his DEA connections in the not-too-distant future because we, somehow, corrupted his little girl. That would be fukt up.

 

lol I doubt he would get us shut down. I'm just saying if he went into the history say he was surfing the web and forgot the web address so he went in the history to click it and he noticed hipforums and checked it out to see what it was. Then he noticed that there were marijuana forums and someone using his computer had an account on it then he'd probably ban her from using the computer.

 

she got caught LOL

 

yup she had to have been caught

 

Thats a bummer.

 

maybe she took her two hits and got so fucked up she couldnt even type. and then she ate cake frosting on tortillas and passed out on the couch where she is happily sleeping at this moment. My hopes for her.

 

Okay you know what?!?!?! Nothing happened. Not a mother-fucking god damned thing because I ruined it again. It was dark, I went to put the rest of the weed onto the can and I missed. I fucking missed so now it's gone, really gone. I was so happy yesterday and I actually thought that something was going to work out for once in my life. I can't believe I fucking fell for it. Everytime I'm happy, everytime I feel like I'm on top of the world something happens so the carpet is yanked from under me. I really do think I might be happier if I wasn't living. But I don't want to bleed, I don't want to be in pain, I just want to check out. But I can't do that. I just want to be happy, that's all. I was happy last night. I thought I was really going to get high and it was going to be great and everything was going to be okay, but I was wrong. I can't turn back time. I fucked up and now there's nothing I can do about it unless I find a remote control that can rewind life. If I had such a thing I'd probably go back to the
Styx and Blue Oyster Cult concert, the last time I was completely and utterly happy that didn't end in being let down. I was high on life, I was ecstatic, and no one could take it away from me. Now everytime there's an ounce of good in my life something comes and snatches it away from me. For one split second I thought I might just move on, but then I came on here and read all these posts and now I feel like slitting my throat. Nothing can make it better. Nothing can change it. Nothing. Then my mom came in and turned off the power while I was writing this message and kept trying to tell me what a fuck-up I am and it made it worse and I was hyperventilating and I couldn't breathe and then she kept telling me I was going in a mental institution and I can't take it anymore!!! She won't leave me alone! There's only so much one person can take and I think I've finally reached the point where it's just simply not worth it anymore. No matter what I do, it's going to get taken away. It's going to be the same way with my music career. I'm going to have a hit song and think what I'm doing is actually working and then the minute I turn my back it's all going to be gone. Wesley makes me happy. I'm going to get all happy becausw I think he might like me back and then tomorrow I'm going to see him with another girl. I'm done putting up with this shit. I'm done. All the joy has been sucked out of my life. This is life's way of saying screw you. I want things to get better but I'm sick of sitting around waiting while every time I'm about to once and for all crawl out of this darkness it shoves me down again. And I'm all alone here and nobody cares/understands. I'm just about done.

 

mmmmmmmm reading that gave me the munchies. Tonight I shall scrape my bowl then make 10,000 tortillas with cake frosting.

 

well damn if she did get caught then that sucks, but honestly i think way too much thought was put into getting a little high... i mean its not all that difficult to do... step one: light, step 2: inhale, step 3: repeat... i makes me laugh when i see people make a big deal about ridiculous hiding places to smoke, and i can smoke a joint on the corner by my school and know ill be fine...

 

woodstock it's ok. Not getting high is not the end of the world. I'm shocked someone would react like this to NOT getting high. I would suggest talking to a close friend or sibling if you have one or someone you really trust and sort things out.

 

No. I think I'm going to end my life.

 

No. Suicide is a permanet solution to a temporary problem. Think about what you're saying.

 

I have. It's not like this is a one-time thing. It happens everytime I'm happy. It ends like this.

 

honestly smoking weed isnt going ot solve any problems , and i hate to say this but in you circumstances it would just cause problems.

 

Well, everyone else gets to be happy so if I have to be miserable it's not really worth it.

 

Yes. And it still just floors me that someone is that upset and messed up over NOT getting high. If you would have felt shitty after actually getting high I'd totally understand. But dude just because you didn't get high it's probably a good thing. I think I speak for a lot of people here when I say I know people that were great people and had bright futures then they smoked weed which sorry everyone it is a gateway drug whether we like it or not and it led them to other things and now they sit in a room by themselves with a bag of drugs. Woodstock talk to god or whoever you need to talk to and get things sorted out please.

 

An incident like this made me stop believing in god, or having the slightiest notion that he gave a damn about me.

 

Wow that's one of the most ridiculous things I've ever heard. You are going to stop believing in god and think he doesnt give a damn about you because fate has not let you get high? I tried to be nice but now i'm starting to lose my sympathy for you.

 

I don't think this is just about getting high, this seems like the cumilation of 15 years worth of crap and the indicent with the pot just broke the camel's back.