Getting fucked up

Nah I never said that at all Peanuts. I said that I quit relying on opiates to be happy. I still drink beer and was taking psychedelics up until a few weeks ago, but now that Aura is having a baby Im not going to trip without her lol. But yea Im not religious at all, I just love God like God loves us

 

My point to Lucky is that there is nothing wrong with taking LIGHT opiates, like percocet or vicodin, every once in awhile. But when you start using morphine or heroin just because your depressed, you have a big problem that can kill you, and I was much worse than she and I got out of it by just refusing to run from my problems.
It's all in the intention, if you take a perc to brighten up your mood and take away aches in your body every once in few, well that's what they are designed for. Big difference between having some fun and killing pain on occasion, and blasting heroin up your nose so that life doesnt make you sad anymore.

 

I've used vicodin for pain and for pleasure. It's a bad bad cycle to get into.

Never got into tripping. I did it 3 times and that was it. I have enough going on in my head. That would send me over the edge.

 

I like what you said about God.

 

i think it's pretty well known that i'm an alcoholic
i'm trying to get myself over this
and if it wasn't for something very tragic that just happened in my life i would be doing well with it
last night was a step back for me, but i feel like shit right now and i'm trying not to fall back into my old ways

drinking to avoid my problems is just too easy

i also chew far too much gum

 

Im an admitted Tim and Eric addict. I was even talking about getting a Grill Vogel tattoo last night, thank God Aura stopped me!

 

Someone has to be the voice of reason around here

 

I swear if I didnt have you in my life, Id have a Grill tattoo, Casey's lyrics on my back, and B'Owl on my forehead

 

Relayer, I'm glad that you quit doing the psychedelics. You have to be really careful if they are causing you seizures. I have a very good friend who never had any health problems until a couple trips on LSD. He had a seizure once....then another a couple years later. He was later diagnosed with epilepsy. The acid brought out what was going to happen anyway.

Long story short....now he has to be medicated and the medicine doesn't always work. He was driving one day...had a seizure....flew off the road, hit a tree over a 40 foot cliff. He was ok.....his truck was not.....but he was....

Anyway....that is not to scare you in the least but to tell ya to be careful.

Who needs a religion when you have yourself and that which is the spark of divinity within.....

 

Yea I hear ya Marie.
I mean, I dont believe LSD will bring out anything physical, let alone epilepsy, but it can lower anyone's threshold to seizures, wether you have a condition or not. I dont know though, I mean I dont think Im developing anything like that, but I could be. I have seizure like feelings very often at night, but never during waking hours (save for that mushroom trip). And it's not so much that Im quitting psychedelics, just that I will wait a few years, like I did when Jack was born, I waited until he was over 2, so I could have time to adjust to being a father and get my life back in order

 

Maybe you should go hiking in the Sierras (get out of Nevada for a day..)

I hate Nevada never spent that much time there but most of the time I did was not that great.

 

I smoke weed like it is going out of style
drink a large cup of coffee from the donut shop every morning

xanax are so strong for me..when I take one, I am asleep in less than an hour and knocked out for 10 hours straight.

 

Phew! Good thing I met you before your Tim and Eric obsession had fully developed

 

I have to say, I'm enjoying sobriety quite a bit.

Often I'm happy for no reason at all. Just because I'm well-rested and healthy.

Sometimes I feel like I got unspent energy that I usually kill off with alcohol and cigs; hence all the jogging and the gym.

I'm a little anxious about my social life. I'm going to have to be able to socialize without the aid of drugs.

 

Maybe God is starting to pry your mind open!
One of us! One of us! One of us!

 

they say it wasn't the LSD itself but it opening doors for it to occur.

Just be safe and enjoy.

One of my fav quotes is something along these lines "As long as I was always trying to be high which is a polar opposite of low, I realized I was trying to push something away from me." Love that.....best high is from finding it in every moment, naturally with the breath. Though I am no where near it....but this is my understanding. Love and breath. How much easier in a complicated world

 

I think, by not looking for it, we will find that soul bliss. The problem is, we are so unsatisfied with life that we cant help but look, even when we are trying to not look!

 

I was fine when I was actually stoned, however if I hadn't have a spliff all day I'd get.. well, generally miserable I guess and I'd start questioning things that I shouldn't have to question, ever. It just made me depressed and moody, and that freaked me out so much because I have never been like that before. So I'm gonna take a long break from smoking, I'm sure it's fine in moderation later on however for now I just want to clear my head and focus on other things like finishing my degree and the wedding.

 

i smoke weed
occasionally smoke pipe tobacco
i spend my life on myspace
:/
but yea weed makes me feel stupid too
but other times i feel like i have super human powers