Getting excited about husband sleeping with another woman

My husband says that he would understand if I decided to see what is out there. He wouldn't like it but he says because he did he wouldn't stop me. I havn't been with anyone other than my husband nor do I have any desire to do so. He gives me everything that I need and want. I have loved this man since I first saw him when I was 15. I can't explain it but I have never wondered what it would be like with anyone else. It doesn't even excite me because I love what I have with him. Now, on the other hand, I wouldn't mind having a threesome (another woman). We are just getting use to having her back in our life. I like how it makes him feel when I talk about her. He has shared everything about the affair with me-I think this is why I can get passed all of it because I know every little detail and if I think of something, he will tell me. He still gets nervous when I ask him to really enjoy the moment when we are in a fantasy because he doesn't want to hurt me. But this is something I really enjoy...something that I never thought I could let the real me out, but it works for us and that is all that matters. I finally have figured out that is doesn't matter what other people think-I could do everything the perfect way, by the books, and still someone would not like it. So, I am making myself happy.

 

Roger-can I call you that?-Thank you for understanding me and giving me the encouragement to do whatever I think is right. People don't understand what this has given me. They don't understand why I would want them to be friends after what has happened. I don't see the bad in the affair anymore....at first I did...but because I have changed so much, I see the good now. I think that she came into our lives for a reason and that reason was to kick me in the ass to wake me up and start living life. I really think that I would be sitting around doing nothing if I hadn't found out. I do believe that she is a good person. I have talked to her several times and I know how sorry she is but that doesn't make her a bad person. It makes her someone who made a bad choice. There are so many good things that have come from this and not very many people can look at it like this. I went through many stages now and I have grown to love myself. I feel confident of who I am, who we are as individuals and as a couple. We can both be ourselves-finally and I think that is what gives us our greatest strength. When you love yourself it doesn't matter what other people think. It feels great knowing that I can trust him again. That they can be friends and me not wonder what is going on....and if I do I know I can talk to him.

Life is good!