ive had it put right in front of my face and offered to me a few times since i got clean, im able to say no every time and people actually get upset or uncomfortable when i dont wanna do it, there like are you SURE you dont want a blast? and im like yes thank you very much for the offer i really do appreciate it, but give it to some one else who can actually enjoy it.
Getting clean for some of us is a lifetime fight. The drugs are constantly in our head and we want to get high for whatever the reason may be. You look around and all you see sometimes is drugs. Everything reminds you of it. Its hard, a lot of people struggle. Changing the way you think, permanently, is very tough, but very rewarding. You have to keep your eye fixed on the end of the tunnel. Its constantly dark when getting clean but slowly you keep driving towards the end, the light. When you finally reach it and are out, its nothing but a clear road ahead with mountains to drive, coastlines to smell and animals watching you. Its beautiful and life is in a whole new spectrum. Being clean and staying high on life is very hard at first but feels so good. Some of the strongest people i know are those who have overcome addicting. Mentally they are on a whole other plane of those who have not fought drug addiction. A lot of people will help you along the way and others will put you down. None should matter on your road to success. You choose the speed, so go with it and enjoy the ride. Its beautiful living a sober life with the occasional marijuana smoking. If thats your thing.
That probably wouldnt have been my response, guess it depends on who it is. Why does it seem that people you call friends, kmowing your trying to get clean, still attempt to shove your DOC in your face. I could never understand it. To be so selfish because someone doesnt like to use alone drives them to give dope to someone whos trying to quit! Good on ya for turning it down and being able to maintain your recovery!!
your right, but i dont think they understand how hard it is for some one to say no, in their head they are being nice by "Hooking u up" but it also is a large hurdle for me to say no and i am still able to, its almost like the ultimate test. It made me feel better about myself being able to refuse oxycodone. When he asked me i started thinkin in my head, should i just do one little blast? then i quickly thought "well the last time i just did a little blast i still felt like shit for the next 2 days". Ive been through hell with my addiction and i have seen so much bad from it that it makes me not want to go back, alot of addiction is mental, i feel like i will always be addicted to drugs but i dont want to do the ones that make my pockets broke, and feel like shit when im not on it. when i was doing opiates my whole life revolved around how i was going to get my next high, its such a shitty way to live that i dont ever want to get back into that habit again. thanks for the support and input guys! keep on keeping on!
Honostly allot of you never will be clean. The opiate addiction is just too strong, and you are all admitting it. I have seen plenty of people clean for months of H, and all they talk about is how great opiates are. Long after the pysical addiction is gone, you will never get over the mental asspect. Maybe some of you don't want to get high, but I think most opiate users still do. That's why they will.
i want to get high on opiates but i dont ever want to come down off of them, there fore i cant do them
I suppose I am addicted to Suboxone, which I take as off-label, last-resort treatment for my refractory bipolar disorder. But, I really don't mind it. Besides the monthly monetary costs, there aren't any things I particularly find disdainful about the addiction. It literally saved my life, so I'll take the addiction.
^What if your doc decides at some point in your life to take you off them man? Your gonna mind then. W/D from subs will be hellish.
I have already talked to the doctor about that. He says he plans to keep me on it for life unless I decide to terminate treatment. He is very 'proud' to have successfully treated me for mental illness with the drug. As a funny side note: I thought you meant 'Drug of Choice' when you wrote 'doc'. haha. Shows where all of our minds are..
Finally an intelligent post in these forums!! A lot of you may not agree with me but out of all the drugs out there opiates have got to be the worst. There's a reason one of it's nicknames is junk. Because that's exactly what it is! It starts out as you doing drugs but then changes to the drugs doing you. Dude, just keep smoking your bud and doing your psychedelics. I hope you get clean and stay clean. Good luck to you and don't give in to the junk!!
thanks man im tryin to continue down the non opiate patch. ive used lsd, mdma, and dmt a few times since i got clean but i tell you what not haven that next day hang over from not having a roxicet is like heaven!
so i went to a fest in maine this past weekend let me tell u it was hard to refrain from using opiates considering out of the 12 people i went with only me and one other person didnt use opiates. the other 10 people were ready to leave the beautiful music festival because3 they were all going to get sick because the perk 30's ran out. one of their dealers ended up coming the second night so we got to stay. but i saw a few of my buddies trade e pills for a gram of dope nd they were sniffing huge rails, doing rails of k, eating rolls, smoking mad weed, drinking beer, and sniffing up xanax and roxicets. It was hard to refrain but i just kept thinking of how much it must suck for them to not have any fun if they dont have their opiates. fuck drugs that get you sick when u dont have them!!!!!!!!!!
Bringing this thread back, Its been over a year and ill be honest with you guys. Ive probably done 50-60mg of oxycodone/hydrocodone in that time period. I didnt kick my addiction. but i think going from 2 30mg perks a week, to 2 30mg perks in a year is a pretty good start.
Ya but it was enough for me to feel like a fiend, and its pretty bad when u r IV the roxies. Plus i would do H too if it was around me. I havent fucked with that shit in almost 2 years. hey thanks for the words of encouragement! What has helped me is finding things that i like to do. I bought a moped, started growing vegetables (Amongst other things) and playing drums in a band. All that along with work really helps me keep my mind off of it.
