Gateway Drug? Paranoia Anxiety Etc

I think I decided last night I want to lay off the weed for a while. Lately I've been getting into really paranoid/depressed/anxious states when I smoke by myself. I'm sure it's not JUST the weed, but I think weed does heighten certain fears and emotions that are usually repressed or ignored when I'm not high.

So last night out of nowhere, I got this sick feeling in my stomach thinking about how weed is a gateway drug, and I totally understood how it's possible. I was feeling so fucked in the head with the weed and anxiety and all that, and thought about how coke makes you feel great and happy all the time. Then I spent the next 20 mn convinced that I was going to become a coke addict because once I do it and like it once, I know I'll be so thoroughly fucked since I have such weak self-discipline and a very addictive personality. I tried to convince myself not to try coke again. The only time I tried it before, I was already drunk and probably stoned, and I didn't feel the effects that much, plus I only did small amounts off the tip of a key. So........ I'm a bit scared to get stoned again because I think I'll have a hard time stopping myself from trying to get coke. Once I'm no longer high, though, everything is fine and I have no desire to get blow. I'd have a hard time finding any, anyway, so that helps. But I think I'm getting too close to the feeling of wanting to try, and since it usually happens when I'm high and paranoid and upset, I think I will stop smoking for a while.

Any advice on dealing with the anxiety/paranoia that happens when smoking?

 

I am sorry you are feeling anxious and paranoid after you smoke weed. That doesn't sound like much fun at all.

What kind of weed are you smoking? Is it a Kush, Indica, Setiva? I think the anxiety and paranoia you are feeling has to do with the type of weed you are smoking. Try switching up the type of bud if you can, and smoking only a small amount at a time, until you are aware of and used to the type of high that particular bud gives you.

In regards to the blow, please please please don't use it. It wont make anything better, I promise. I have a lot of experience with cocaine, and it is not a good drug to dabble in. Not only is it highly addictive, but it can cause severe anxiety and paranoia and heart problems if you do too much. As your past usage only consists of a tiny key bump, I worry if you source some out, you will end up doing too much as you don't have any sort of tolerance, and I wouldn't want anything to happen to you. You can always call or text me if you are feeling anxious or need someone to talk to. I'd rather you do that, than go out and source cocaine.

How much do you exercise? You could also try and increase the amount of physical activity you do. Exercise is great for a natural high, and if you chase that natural high you get from exercise, it should help reduce your anxiety.

 

whoever told op that coke makes you happy was wrong...



drugs aren't for everyone....stop taking them

 

no advice, same thing happened to me.

quit weed.

sounds harsh, but once this starts happening, the party's pretty much over.

I started giving myself longer and longer breaks to try and get my head back in gear when i was on it, but every time I tried it again, i just wound up fucking miserable.

I "took a break" for three years to see if giving my head some time off would let me enjoy it again. One hit = anxiety, depression, self loathing, paranoia, near panic attack.

And don't replace it with coke. Don't fuck with that stuff if you already know you have an addictive personality, you're asking for trouble.

Make your peace with it, look back on the good times, then knock it on the head.

 

Ah yea, I forgot about the self-loathing. It really comes on quite strong when I'm high. The strain I have is indica heavy, but I recently smoked some sativa-dominant strain and that freaked me out, too. It's probably a self-fulfilling prophecy by now, since I'm worrying so much about the oncoming freakout, that I then start to freak out.

Hmm, well I do exercise plenty. I could probably do more challenging workouts and chase that natural high. For the most part, when I'm with friends, I don't have these issues since I'm out doing stuff and drinking, which leaves me little time to get lost in my head. So I think for now, I will stop smoking by myself. It hasn't been all that enjoyable to do it alone for a while anyway.

Thanks for the replies!

 

Sounds more like you yourself set yourself up for the anxiety by continuing thinking of Ganja being a gateway drug and how other drugs make you feel. An exception is if the Ganja was laced with Opium or something else. It is the fear that was instilled upon us by the "war on drugs" thank you Nancy Reagan and still is.

Next time it happens, take a walk outside. The air, trees and nature in general will curb that feeling. Enjoy it don't stress it, But the best advice is stop doing it. we are not all meant for it

If it is not natural. do not take. While Coke, heroin are in nature, they are made by synthesizing means (added lime and ammonia for heroin) and (lime, Acid, Diesel fuel, etc for coke) another words extracted by chemicals. Ask any 70's rock band if coke is/was fun. The first hits are the euphoric feelings, any time after you are just chasing the feeling of the first hit

Also if it was Hydro, sometimes if not properly "washed" or overly heavy use on the hydro chemicals to produce more buds, then that may have an awkward affect as well. Always know your source.

It can be a gateway drug if your personality is addictive in nature and always require "something" else. Only you know your personality, have a peek at it

Again ALWAYS KNOW YOUR SOURCE, Quit or grow your own

Best o' luck

 

Yeah I'm thinking the urge for coke might have just been part of my freakout, which consisted of a really grim view of the downward spiral my life seemed to inevitable head towards. But I'm better. The desire to experiment with coke again is pretty much gone. Thanks for the replies everyone. It really helped to talk about it.

 

I think you should definitely stop smoking.

 

I'm glad. Feel free to text me anytime you need a friend. I can definitely relate to what you're going through.