Fuck Off Xmas

Ah, Christmas. A time when families come together, and all are once again painfully reminded of the reasons for not seeing each other throughout the non magical months of the year.

 

i am happy not to be plugged in
to the anxiety generating frenzy
the dominant culture has made of the mid-winter season.

let all who enjoy, enjoy, and i wish happiness to one and all.

i pursue a calmer happiness, even if it is only an imaginary garden in my mind.

one that is neither the personality cult of a well meaning dead guy,
nor the cornucopia of entrepreneurial adventure.

i find a simple feast of midwinter,
a calm observance of the parade of the seasons,
suffices adequately.

there are some elements of my physical surroundings
that could generate a greater enthusiasm on my part.

these however are much the same, regardless of season.

specific examples would be less pavement and more natural green
and thus also a safer place for a greater diversity of life forms.

other sapients of course, have their own reasons for other priorities.

for the season of course, a blanket of snow, the smell of pine needles,
and an all pervasive mood of universal consideration,
offer much to recommend them.

these are conspicuously absent.
though a vigorous rainfall is currently replenishing the earth.

 

We had our family Xmas dinner this evening. It was nice. Aunts and uncles and the cousins and family friends. Our pork was amazing but I think I liked the Turkey more which I normally don't do it must have been nice.

Since some of the family friends were Italian we started with a lesagne pasta which was large enough for a meal itself and then the "mains" came out. I ate a lot.

 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rTJHNTWUmX8

I don't really hate Xmas, but I love that song. Also, not really having the greatest end of the year either, but trying to stay optimistic. Was going to watch Home Alone (definitely some perks of Xmas), but got distracted by music instead. XD

 

Amazing, really, how the population triples in size in public places this time of year. Where are all these people the rest of the year? Do they not leave their house january - november?

 

My only thought is, I am so thankful I don't celebrate Christmas. No stress of buying or receiving gifts.

 

Family pissed me off so I left. I don't need any negative energy...I should say I don't need any extra negative energy so anyway, I love my mother and sisters so I will gladly give them another day to chill out. But I have enough problems without the people who are supposed to help me through those times being leaches on top of predators. The thing I said most since I got here was."if you need help let me know"
The thing I heard since I been here is "not in my house"
Guarantee that will change tomorrow or I will simply not help them and all my problems are solved.

 

I'm sorry Pengers. =[

 

Thanks. I am always the one who needed help so I guess everyone just assumes I can't make it on my own...surprise!! I can make it on my own I just need help to help everyone else. On my own all is fine and dandy.

 

Here its still common to not give presents around christmas either. But to be fair, most dutch who don't do that around christmas do presents around 5 dec (st. Nicolas day).