So every girl has this beautiful envision of the man that is perfect in every way. She might call him her soul mate, or just the 'man of her dreams'. Usually it ends there, and she doesnt even look for him because she doesnt truely believe he exists. Well i was on the verge of believing this too. But then somebody added me on myspace.. And sure enough, he was that man. I mean.. every single detail i could go on about him that is exactly what I want.. *australian catholic capricorn perfect body perfect hair and face 4 years older than me (he's 21) musician (his lyrics are absolutely perfect, his favorite band is my favorite The Vines, which is not common, he's the lead singer of a band and plays guitar and i loove the music..) He's a virgin (doesnt get any hotter than that) I even told him how I fealt about him. He didn't freak out like I thought he would. He thought it was kinda cool. He actually liked me a lot too. He tells me im the most beautiful girl he has ever seen. He loves to talk to me and we do all the time with webcam. But... After telling him about my sexual past he lost that interest. He said I wasnt what he thought i was.. (He's saving sex untill marraige) I was so sad after his let down i just got offline and started crying. The next day he had sent me emails with naked pictures of himself (which no girl had ever seen) saying he was so sorry and he didnt want me to be sad and that he loved our conversations and didnt want them to stop.. So we continued to have our talks which mostly consisted of Romeo and Juliet "I love your eyebrow; i just want to touch you" crap. I dont understand why he wants to persue these talks, when they don't actually mean that to him. He said he wants to have sex with me, but it is all an act. Maybe he feels this way, but only as a fantasy. Anyway.. I am willing to do anything for this man. He is possibly the kindest man I've ever met as far as giving me attention and telling me how beautiful I am. At leaste, that i feel the same respects for. So I decided I would do what i had to do to win his love.. So instead of running from him afraid to get hurt, i just keep 'playing along'. And as an ultimate sacrafice, I've chosen to give up sex. I told him that there where was nothing I could do to take back my past, and i honestly probably wouldnt if i could, but He had inspired me to give it up untill marraige. He seemed like he was proud of my decision, but didn't seem to have any more interest in me still. I'm wondering if I should continue my dedication.. ..or will I be wasting my life away? This is hard for me because he is so perfect, and I am afraid I will never find another man like him. I don't want to blow my possibilities.. help. PLEASE!