I tried to socialize. I made new friends. Lost a ton of weight. Staying positive. Voices are so very mean to me. Frustrating, painful, leads to drinking more and more to change what they say into something friendly. Happens within two minutes of waking up until I hit the pillow. People have been so mean to me. So mean. Competitive, conniving, two-faced, and very very condescending and humiliating. I don't deserve it. I don't disrespect people. I don't stick my nose where it doesn't belong. And on the other hand, I don't constantly as for advice and/or not return the favor. People see me as having some easy life, even too easy because I'm friendly and wear bright clothes. Moments like this make think "forget it. I can't be happy with this condition." That's not gonna stop them though. Watch them flip the script and talk about being positive. People are bitter and bitchy. Now I just want to be alone because I don't trust them. Where are they like that though? Because I have been to tons of cities and states and have yet to see this really (besides in the past), even on the net where people are supposedly assholes. But people say I'm naive and that this is the reality.
I'm on the max of antipsychotics and big dose of antidepressants. It works for some symptoms but not this (voices).
Thank you Melial. Yes it's very hard to live with, especially when no one around me understands what I go through and they say I don't know "those people" on the Internet and compare the gang to Ted Bundy. They think my life is so easy breezy, that I've never worked a day in my life, that I don't have my priorities straight, and that there's not a damn thing wrong with me, that I'm just lazy. The voices pick up on that and that's some of the stuff they say.
I hope things get better for you, that sounds tough to deal with. Unfortunately I think it comes down to a lack of understanding for most people when they say or think things like that. Keep wearing your awesome bright clothes and screw the lot of them. It doesn't matter what the topic is you really love making it a gender issue don't you?
Becuase in her case the root cause is a gender issue. She doesnt get on with other woman, they hate her and she's never interested enough about them anyway Nor is she interested in guys that arent interested in trying to get her pants off Which leaves the subset of straight guys that want to get busy, and she's always had trouble with them becuase of 'never working a day in her life', putting the financial gain before them. You can be supportive online and pretend to be her friend, but if it where real life, you would hate her and she wouldnt care about you, she would more likely want to go at least shopping with me, and then only if it included hunting for men, then I'd get the flick as soon as she finds one. That is the reality
Since it is the mental health forum, I'll talk about depression. In males it occurs mainly either when they are younger and feel they have no future, or when they are older and have been without a job for too long. With females, depression hits at three to four times the rate of males, on average across all ages Medication will cover the biological causes, what what if those reasons only ever account for 1/4 of the causes Why is there such a gender and age disparity with depression?
Yeah but I don't really believe in therapy. It's just a an extra topping and I will probably quit soon. I think it's quackery. My therapist may even be invested in keeping me struggling so she can continue to get paid. My insurance pays her $125 per visit. I ask myself: do you think your therapist's life is better than yours? You don't think she has bad emotions or even breakdowns. She might even have a therapist. I've never thought about acupuncture, but I'll keep it in mind. My motto is that life is managed not cured. It's like people think they can work out issues by the time their 20s or their midlife and then coast like go back to school or get a career. But I think there will always be something to work on, which keeps life interesting. But yeah therapy is cool. Thanks for your input.
I think it is the case, unfortunately, that some therapists are there for the pay check (or the power trip, etc) rather than helping people. You may want to shop around for a therapists rather than giving up on therapy all together. Therapists don't necessarily have fewer problems than you. The question is really whether they can help or not. I don't think that therapy will cure you, but if you are having trouble with voices in your head, a therapist may help keep you tuned into reality. Understanding that the voices are just voices, a part of mental illness, could make a big difference in how you feel. It could also be that therapy is just not for you.
Ya just gotta keep fighting it. Fight that brain! Fight the voices! Fight the depression. Pick up a bong, get blazed. Snort some drugs. Get your mind so fucking fucked that it don't know who's boss. that'll sort something out.
I feel you on the voice situation. I have schizoaffective disorder as well as depression and anxiety, it makes life really difficult. I have to deal with a voice in my head that says negative things about me, tells me that people hate me and are out to get me, that I'm an awful person and not capable of success. I'm so sorry you're going through this. People think you should be able to "snap out of it" and get on with life. It sucks when your own mind is your worst enemy, it really does. I just suggest you try to stay positive, stay present and keep yourself busy.
