For the firsth time in my life...

Today I decided that I'm going to start keeping a list in my book of shadows of things I've done new for that day. I think I'm going to keep track for a whole month (only a limited number of pages) and maybe that will teach me something! I'll start living.

PS I colored my hair blue and got my belly button pierced in the past two days! (I've felt REALLY free spirited and like fuck what everyone thinks I don't mind being a blue headed freak for a while!)

 

hehe, good for you!...

I spent last five days in Belgrade, which I'm in love with, and I learned so many new things about that city (it's usefull because in a few months I'll go to college there) and I started to like it even more!...

 

i'm getting my prom dress altered today. that's the first time i've ever had to do that!

 

i have to say..today i actually spoke what i felt deep down inside (not exactly positive)..which hurted me for so long, i felt i couldnt go on any longer if i didnt say it. cant keep it in forever i guess. but i really did hurt her inside. i feel terrible for it. i regret every single thing i said. if i can turn back time i would. because i still love her. but i think i really messed. this is the reason i dont speak what i feel. it hurts me even more.

 

i put makeup on for the first time today!
my sister demanded i looked pretty for my high school interview so she guided me through the process. i think it looks silly but everone else has said how different and mysterious i look! hahaha
peace

 

...i go home to do my homework instead of wandering about the city....

 

For the first time in my life I get it on with my old man.

 

talked to my gynocologist about stomach problems

 

a bug has been going around and she played 20 questions with me.

 

i like an emo guy and he likes me back

 

Today i have done nothing new but a few days ago i sat out under the stars with my daughter it was the first time i can ever remeber seeing so many and the joy on her face i cant wait till we do something else new

 

Today for the first time I skipped from my class and got dettention, I'm actually such a nerd and I never skip classes

 

Today I had my first shot of a playboat(rodeo) kayak.

 

Today I finally finished highschool!..Whoo-pee!... )