Fetish/fantasy Issue

Hi guys

This question is more for the ladies but happy for a man's feedback too.

It's true that the more you describe a problem, the more help you can get, so please bear with me if necessary.

I've had a jeans fetish for years and love seeing women wearing close fitting sizes. It got to an extreme point (6-12 months ago), that after watching fetish videos, I actually also wanted to experience wearing very close jeans and both my bulge being eyed but also felt down and because of other porn videos, being given a BJ.

The only people willing to do that are 99% homosexual men.

I got prepared, bought small fitting underwear briefs and jean shorts and made sure they were just big enough to put on and I was able to arrange a couple of interested men online. We separately planned out what I wanted to do, etc.

In the end, the 1st guy I believe panicked at the last minute and we never met in the end and the 2nd guy I panicked at the last minute.
With the 2nd guy however I had a dream that clearly told me that I would have been absolutely disgusted by the waste of energy and time meeting up.

I'm still fixated on such a fantasy and made a private amateur video but I really feel I want to sort this out; somehow.

Masturbating every 2 - 3 days is fine but never really is the ultimate.

If such wishes could come true, I'd wish for my high sex drive and my developed fetish to either lower significantly or even disappear.

Suggestions or further clarifications?

Much appreciated guys )

 

Nice to meet you.

 

I had in mind once to go in my shorts to a gay bar and while having a drink, see who picks me up, if any.

Just the pleasure of having a strange hand over my bulge. Too much fantasy? Testosterone for a straight man can be powerful! /

 

Hello, and welcome.

this section of the forums is mostly just for introductions, I would suggest posting in a subforum related to sex/fetish, people who have the same interests are more likely to find your post if it is in the right category.

Good luck!