You treat everyone well. You are honest. You don't take advantage of others, even in times of business and sex. But from the start, everything was fucked up, but the hope was "the future" - a time that wasn't now. Must have been a defense mechanism. I've done some things, but not the main ones. Only now, there is no pleasure. I don't even know why I'm posting this and have thought about not posting it. Maybe I saw too many great movies on TCM throughout my life, because I must think by posting this, a great woman is going to save my life and we'll love each other forever, and not worry about the material things. An artist. An eventual success and a great final act. I actually paused for about 20 seconds, thinking about that... Thinking about the best love movie ever, "Sunflower" with Sophia Loren and Marcello Mastroianni -- with Vittorio De Sica, the master of masterpieces.
My life: Male, born in the USA, healthy, finished five years of college, no addictions, sane, energetic, kids are grown and very good citizens. I am fortunate that I wasn't T-boned by a dump truck, or the 1989 Loma Prieta Earthquake, or hundreds of other possible disasters. Nothing to complain about.
You're fretting about how unjust life is because you don't have a girlfriend? REALLY? Open your fucking eyes, and look around! Maybe you'll learn what "injustice" means.
I feel ya George, sometimes it seems like a slow motion train wreck, just run into sleazy hustlers and con artists at every step. Every so often you run across some that don't fit that mold but the wind just blows everyone on their different courses and its back to the same old routines leaving one with only Alan Watts lectures to take the edge off the dull ache of wash, wrinse repeat. And while I think Piobaire misinterpreted your point, they have a good one too, it can always be far far worse. Not always easy to take solace in but I think that's just the best we get. The Most Difficult Thing To Explain - Alan Watts
Go to Palestine. And you only know one paragraph of my life. You don't know what's happened to my life. Open your fucking brain.
I feel ya man. Life can be a real bitch. All I ever wanted was to study medicine, become a doctor and help others but I never had enough money for that! Doesn't seem fair but I guess we're owed nothing in this world. Happy for what I DO have. Hope you find your happiness soon man.