Fantasizing/masturbating about her kissing this guy

This is gonna sound fucking weird and you might think a person would torment themselves thinking about this but here goes. I know this hot girl from my gym though I haven't seen her since the lockdown began. This particular day there a while back I saw her being all pally and a bit flirty with this other guy and assumed, correctly or incorrectly, that they must have hooked up! I know this sounds weird, crazy, whatever the word but I have jacked off in the shower thinking about her and him locking lips passionately in the club or wherever.

 

Nah. Almost a cuckolding fantasy, except you're not actually with the girl.

 

I can't ever remember doing something like this before about a girl I find attractive. Normally, something along the lines of this would drive me mad!

 

Well, now you’ll have something to talk about when you finally get back to the gym and see her. Tell her she’s really been on your mind, get a reaction, and then decide if you want to let her know exactly how she was in your mind.

Who knows, she’ll either never look at you again, or it may lead to your first post-COVID-19 relationship!

 

I must admit I've jacked off over similar situations, but it was imagining them having sex, not simply kissing.

 

I must admit the whole lockdown situation, frustrating and boring as it is, is purging my mindset pertaining to her and indeed my outlook/mindset in general...which can only be a good thing I feel.

 

Oh my, that is intense!