- Extreme Stress

oh! tripping blind people is fun.

and if you can find a wheelchair race, run up from the side and throw a stick in the spokes

 

what a waste, they just forget about your letter as soon as they set it aside anyway.

i've found a much more effective exercise is visiting an orphanage and telling the oldest child there that you want to adopt them and you will be back the next day to pick them up (never to return obviously).

 

I can't really deal with stress - I am stressed-out most of the time.. I guess I have much more self-control now than when I was younger - but I think what helps me cope is to try to detach myself as much as possible, listen to music, read a book, watch a movie.. sometimes I'm so stressed-out I can't even begin to do that.. so I smoke a cig, and talk, and talk, and talk, and talk.. or write.. just vent out everything I feel inside.. to someone or online or a journal..

 

Sorry peeps but I can't remember the last time I was stressed.

 

4 words: exercise, meditation, exercise, meditation.

 

Same.

And I try not to think about it.


I know when I get really angry I have to just stop thinking about it or fume it out, or alternatively I say something really stupid and make myself laugh at the absurdity.

Like the other day I was feeling particularly stupid and stressed because I just spent about 7 and a half hours, working through lunch, formatting a document and then I saved it in a file extension which didn't fucking save the formatting. So I had to explain to my boss what the hell I was doing. And I had to make sure I did it ALL in a day this time. On the drive home My monologue went something like: Fuck you Gary, you're such a fucking idiot. Why the hell would you do that?!! I can't believe you would be so damn stupid. And besides, Gary is a stupid name. Only idiots have a name like Gary. You're an idiot.

Then I lol'd and relaxed. :biggrin:

 

I smoke weed. However, being unemployed, I rarely have weed. Now I'm taking lexapro and xanax. The lexapro only seems to make things worse, so I have to take more xanax. lol

In fact, I actually ate 19 xanax's a few minutes ago and all of my stress is currently being rinsed away

Another thing that helps to clear my mind is high doses of psychedelics, but if I wanna be able to trip, I'll have to stop taking lexapro, because SSRI's cancel out the effects of psychedelics.

 

I smoke a lot of pot...lol. If I don't have pot, I usually try this: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6wS5xOZ7Rq8

 

I guess my problem is that I have some sort of "explosive stress".
I can let things roll off of me for the longest time, and then all of a sudden I just can't take it anymore and everything bothers me, and I end up just contributing to the negativity.

 

I feel that way too.