Ok so here's the deal... My girlfriend of 2 years finally had enough of the fighting and what not in our relationship and we split up last month. In a nutshell, we treated each other like shit for too long and she met someone else. So we split up, she ended up sleeping with that guy on the first night. I don't blame her really because looking back, I was a total ass. But anyway...it's been over a month and she has since left him because we realized what we mean to each other. She told me the truth about sleeping with him including telling me it happened on the first night of breaking up...it upset me quite a bit at first but now when I think of it, it kind of turns me on. Why is that? When it comes to porn and fantasies - I'm into orgies/swingers. Never done it though. Before we split, while having sex with her, I imagined another guy fucking her at the same time a lot. (don't bring up me being gay...I work in a jail and witness guys jerking off and fingering their assholes very often...definitely disgusting and it makes me sick to my stomach frankly. I find the male body pretty disturbing really.). I think it is just the idea of seeing her in complete ecstasy that gets me. When I get her going myself, I finish quick. Her being turned on turns me on. That's why I like the idea of orgies too. Just letting go of all inhibitions and focusing on complete pleasure. A FFM threesome would be cool, but it only takes one pussy to please me and it's hard enough focusing on that one to make sure it gets enough. That's why I like the idea of having help to completely drive her crazy. So, after she told me that I got upset. But after a few days I let it go and when I think of it, it doesn't bother me. She, on the other hand, thinks it bothers me a lot still and thinks I'm going to hold it over her head. Basically, I wanna tell her "hey listen...you were horny and fucked someone else cause you weren't getting satisfied by me...I get it" but the fact that it kind of turns me on to think of her getting screwed by another guy is what is hard. I know she did it because she was stressed and horny. And I know that while doing it, it turned her on a lot. Which turns me on that she was turned on...if that makes sense. When it comes down to the bare bones - she truly loves me and I know it. The sex she had with him had nothing to do with love and that is also why it doesn't bother me as much as it should. I'm just happy to have her back. (for the record - she is not a cheater. Like I said I don't blame her for leaving or doing what she did and she would NEVER fuck anyone behind my back while we are together) How do I set her straight without making her think I'm a weirdo? "Hey honey...the idea of another guy fucking you is hott, don't sweat it!" seems a little weird to me.