my closest thing to melon collie is a nostalgia for certain possible futures as much or more then probable pasts. as for paranoia, its only paranoia if you take it personally. there are always a few people who are out to get anyone who takes any position on anything, even if it is to take no position at all. they're really a minority though, however vocal. the do occasionally however, sometimes find their way into positions of power. as for the rest, as i get older i find myself getting horny less and less often, which is fine with me. i have no wish to be led around by that thing between my legs. as for bleak and desolate, only when distracted from the diversity of reality, which i have learned to always know is out there somewhere, giving birth to hope, in even the most hopeless of situations.
i have no desire to feel this combination of feelings for the sake of some supposed humor. those who do are of course welcome to do so.