Good on you. Going commando a a kid with a 7 and a half inch dick that's half up a lot, gets embarrassing. Accidentally it slipped out of my shorts leg and a young female teacher saw it. Whoops
Yes it was. My dad was a bachelor father with some warped ideas. If I got to know girls I might get one pregnant. That plus the 'women always hurt you' phobia he had, gave my brother and I some shame and fear. Here I am at 70, Chatting on here, wishing I could go back and do it right. It does help to talk and vent somewhat.
I'm so sorry to hear that, I understand your father was raised in a different time and had been hurt at least in his mind he was trying to protect you. I believe the most beautiful act is creating life, to be free and open with yourself and those around you.
Have been very fortunate in being able to have an erection whenever I've wanted, but can't exactly conversely say I've been able to stop the ones I didn't want. Goes back to my high school days those many years ago, when I went to the local Little Art theater on XXX movie night with a group of guy and girl friends (they always let us in even though we still weren't old enough). Knowing how uncomfortable it was to get an erection in tighty-whities, I went commando. Feet up on the back of the seats in front of us. Heard some giggling that didn't match the movie scenes. Damn, zipper failure... Was somewhat more popular for a long while after though.
Other kids in the 60's were fingering girls in the movies, having sex in hidden places in the woods. I sat with dad I might add, in the movies. A couple I knew from school were sitting in the row in front of us and had sex during the movie. Old canvas seating. She sat on his dick after the national anthem. My turn, dammit, I was thinking. It was a pity to see it as exciting and shameful for me at the same time. Now I wish free sexual expression was just the normal thing to do.
Its natural for teen boys to feel such frustration when they're denying their natural urge to sexually gratify themselves, to explore sexually but you did so to please your father although it doesn't provide a proper outlet for your need to be social and sexual
The outlet turned out to be a guy and I pulled each other off a few times. He had a huge thick cock. That implanted cocks in my brain but he was gay and pushy so that was a turnoff. Never thought of bi stuff until I was 50 in this dead marriage and I did get some oral relief that way. That's something you didn't need to hear I bet. That was a while back. The wife is ok with it. It's not ideal but hey, sex like oxygen, is a huge priority when one isn't getting any.
The thing about having erections, even when they're inappropriate, is that they feel so damned good. It's not the same as having sex, but it definitely is nice to have such an erotic feeling in our pants, just by thinking about it
I'm loving your open, free approach to sexuality. There are a number of ladies on here who's frankness I admire. Pity I didn't know this as it played out.
I was raised naturist and with a free and unconditional moral notion of how to love. The repressed lifestyle most seem to grow up with has never made a lot of sense to me. I like to help those when I can, know that their bodies are perfectly natural and that showing affection and love no matter where and when, is never wrong.
It's an awesome way to be raised. It's so different from the mindset I had to deal with. There were a few I knew who wanted the freedom to think and live like that but it nearly always had to be hidden from the older generation.
Its why you grew up feeling isolated and sexually frustrated, you weren't able to share your urges with others. Its a testament to your good nature that you didn't become angry and resentful from being denied it.
I like to think I am a people person, friendly, loving frank discussions, and should I say somewhat horny and frank at times but that does get a load off my chest and off other areas. At the time, my dad did his best but not having close female friends does hold one back in the game of sex later on. I did resent that for a time but never showed it. Maybe you and I could chat, if you like.