well being dumb DOESN'T make me happy. which is the real and only reason i don't recreationaly consume neurotropic substances. =^^= .../\...
I can do some pretty dumb things, but I know I'm happy. I disagree with the whole seratonin thing. I always had pretty high seratonin levels and was depressed for a long time. Once I quit taking meds (the doctors tried to say I had low seratonin levels) I started feeling much more happy. Now the only time I get depressed is when all kinds of bad things are happening at once and overwhelming me. Like today. All I need is someone to talk to, someone I can relate to, someone who will hug me. Maybe some advice once in a while. Like right now.
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A couple years ago I decided I was going to try being happy with less. Gone with the house, moved to a small community, switched jobs. I now live in a Loft style apartment. When I moved in here I brought my kitchen stuff (I love to cook and have some pretty nice stuff to work with), two chairs, a small TV, a computer and a few other miscellaneous things. Believe me I had very little. No lamps, no end or for that matter any other tables, the TV sat on a cardboard box. To this day one bookcase is a box with a piece of cloth over it. At my job they thought I was going to come in and move up through the ranks right away. The Manager asked me why I was hanging back and I told him I was no longer interested in being in a position of responsibility. They still try to push, but I much prefer actually sleeping at night. Not dreaming about my job and talking in my sleep, thus waking my GF is so nice. There are things I still need to work on, but I am most definitely happier. You know whats kind of strange, I don't make a lot of money anymore but my simple savings has never grown the way it does now.