Do you think about your death often?

I think I am somewhat prepared although there are many things in life I still want. Eventually every single one of us will have to go. How often do you ponder it, if at all?

 

Very often. I'm as ready to go as I will ever be.

 

Ponder it at least once a day, and almost every time i smoke pot....I'm far from being ready to go, I love life.

Sometimes i think about with the people I know, either I will be at their funeral, or them at mine.

 

i think about it every now and then. i think i'm gonna go by way of drowning

 

I ponder it a lot. Never really did until after my near death experience due to complications giving birth to my twins. But now, I think of it often, how easy it would have been for me to just let go, goodness knows my body was trying to give out on me but I fought like heck to stay. I can only imagine how I would have felt had roles been reversed and it had been my husband in the ICU clinging to life, having the doctor sit me down with my parents and my husband's parents and tell them that the next 24 hours were crucial, that he might not pull through. I still have a letter that he wrote me while I was unconscious in the ICU. I found it a few days after I had come to. Every time I read it, it still makes me cry.

I know I am now where near ready to leave this world yet. The mere thought puts me into a panic. I'm absolutely terrified of death. I love my family so very much and the thought of leaving them...it's just terrifying.

 

Is it really like that when you are close to death, you have to will yourself to live?

 

Honestly? For me, I felt it was that way. The feeling was like, I can close my eyes and sleep forever, or I can fight. I chose to fight. I had multiple grand mal seizures, three mini strokes, my kidneys, liver, everything was shutting down on me, my platelets were at basement level, my blood pressure was through the roof. I had H.E.L.L.P. syndrome, which a woman has a one in a million chance of having during pregnancy, as well as severe Toxemia. My twin daughter's placenta had also become prematurely detached and I was bleeding internally when they cut me open to do the emergency c-section. I had given birth to my twin son vaginally first.

All the while, when I was having my c-section, I had this really uneasy feeling. I remember starting to cry, grabbing the nurse's hand and saying "please, I don't want to die". Little did we know at that time at just how bad of shape I was and how close I was going to come to doing just that.

The doctors said if I hadn't come in that day to have the twins, all three of us would have probably died. Crazy stuff.

Anyway, I totally amazed the doctors at my recovery and we all pulled through beautifully after such a rough beginning.

But the experience, although a terrifying one, changed me in a positive way. I really have learned to appreciate life so much more. The downside is that I'm much more aware of just how fragile life really is, and at times, I can obsess over it. But I realize that there's nothing I can do to change a natural part of the circle of life, so, I plan on enjoying the time I have left.

 

i used to think about it obbsessivley. i was a fucked up kid i think because i saw some brutal shit when i was younger. i experienced a lot of loss at a young age & it scared the shit out of me. i had this attitude like life was cheap and i could just drop dead at any second. then i got put on prozac when i was 10 & started smoking pot and now death barely crosses my mind. i dont take prozac anymore though.
im not scared to die, but i do want to live. i want to live as long as i can.

 

very rarely
I want to focus on enjoying my life, not worrying about how/when it eventually ends

 

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I Do think About Death Alot...Sometimes About my Own...

But Often Other Peoples Death...Are What I Think About Mostly...

Close People Have Died...And Even the Death of an Animal Has a Deep Affect...

For my Own Death...I am Ready...Sometimes Waiting...

I Have Accepted that...Eventually People will Die...And Leave you...

It is Not Something that Worries me...

Only...I Wonder...If the Final Moment is Similar to When...During an Operation...You just Fall into Unconciousness...Then I Think Death will be Peaceful...Maybe Not the Events Leading up to Death...

My Body will Decay...We are All Dying Slowly...

 

moreso about the death of others. and the death of things around me and deaths of the past.

 

I try not to think of those things. ^ ^ ^
Sometimes I win others I loose.


My Death?
It's a given.
An hour... thirty years from Now - what's the point in worrying?
Didn't say anything about being obtuse though...

The pertinent question is not when but how.


Ok to speak of this in this thread, eh?

 

A fly was buzzing irritatingly around in my room last night.I opened all the windows and doors yet still it pestered.I tried to ignore it - I was trying to work.After 3 hours I tried to splat it,cos I'd given it as many ways out and it kept bumping into my head.Eventually I gave up with my work and watched a film and went to bed.In the morning it was frantically buzzing around.I opened the window and it flew out.I was happy for it - but that fly had a narrow escape,man.

One day a big fist will come down and splat me - probably really slowly.Well...I tried my best to be an upright citizen

 

I think about it quite often, seeing how I work in a hospital and sometimes have to wrap dead people (although it's been awhile I've done it).


I don't think I'm ready to go: I'm young and there's still a bunch of things that I wanna do. But overall, I'm scared to grow old, not death. I work with the elderly and see what happens: alzeimher, parkinson, dementia, having to have someone feed you, dress you, wash you. I don't want to be an empty shell waiting for eating and such.

 

I do entertain the idea from time to time.
When I think about how I'll die, I just hope it's over quick..
When I think of my impending death, I feel a bit of relief. Never have to get up & work again..
When I think of others dying..I think that our grief is over our loss. Not theirs, & I want them to go quickly too. Painless as possible, that's about it. :/

 

I remember when I was young, I was so scared to die. Not long after I turned 17, my mom passed away. Since then, I've never been scared to die. If I die tomorrow, I'll be happy with the way I lived my life. I think about it often...that's why I want to live my life as full as I can, that way, death can never scare me...that I missed out on something.

 

what is with all yous liking the carpe diem ethos

 

The same breakfast cereal?

 

I think about it far too often, in a pretty saddistic way. I mean... on mnay occasions i have been upset... about to cross a road... It's scary how easy it is to get out, or how easy it is for someone o take you out, just like that. An unexpected death would be the worst way to go out, I'd want people to know my motives for doing so, I mean my dad hung himself when i was 10, and I am still finding out why. Death is fasicanting, minds even more so <3

 

corn flakes?


cheerios?