Does anyone else look for validation of their feelings about themselves from their peers? To expand on the question I am not necessarily a self conscience person. However, I wonder if others see me as; overly flamboyant in my attitude, as a thorn in their side, as a freenchild running wild, or if I am noticed at all. I know there are others who take an interest in my well-being. I know others that would be inconvenienced in my absence. I feel there would be others who feel as if they where better off if I wasn't here. I am by no means trying to downplay my place in this universe, I just wonder if others get to the point where they are "living their lives to the fullest" then wonder if they are making others uncomfortable?
Oh 100% even now at 30yo people question me and my future. not me though, I had plans in life growing up and I'm succeeding those plans. The way I look at life is, well I got one chance at it, and I'm not going to spend it in a way I won't like or accomplish anything. So I set dreams. Not work goals. Yes I know certain aspects of my life came to me out of the blue that help this but still, I'm taking the bull by the horns. Sure older people don't like it. Tell me I'm wasting time hitting pool balls or not making the most of my time, like I need to work 50hrs a week like they did etc. World ain't like that no more. So I'mma travel and have fun. I'm going to go visit the places I dream of visiting and you know what I've ready done that lol, so I make new goals and new dreams. I don't have the mindset of settle down and waste my years away. I'm still young and able, I have passions. And to hell with anyone that doesn't think it's right!! To hell I say!! Don't judge me, just take care of yourself.
That's the way I feel, the one "problem/issue" I have married a pastor. 90% of my attitude the church agrees with the other 10% I keep on the DL. Since my Mother passed away I have taken control of my life. I had the chance to talk to her "off record" or shall I say mother to son. I learned a lot from those brief minutes. The frustrating part is I am very secure in my faith, but others think salvation has to be earned.