Do you ever wonder what all this is?

Are you coming on to me?

 

LMFAO, you wish! You were quick to nitpick someone's word choice and I was just wondering if you actually know what it is?

 

If that's all there is, my friend - then let's keep dancing. Let's break out the booze and have a ball.

 

I think a lot of people choose their life path because society says we should and while we may love those we have in our lives, we are not always fulfilled by walking that path.

 

Earth and the universe we exist in, is something we should all be thankful for. Be it God or a supreme being, I see a beautiful day, and love it. If Mother nature gives us storms, she may be telling us, we need to do a better job taking care of the world we live in.

 

I'm actually anti-group.

 

I had a thought about this today, especially since I had a husband, house and career and ended up going to jail and then was homeless. I had my entire world taken from me - now just building back whatever life I could, I have an open road ahead of me of whatever life I choose - so yeah, maybe I don't know if this is all there is, but I am excited to find out what's in store for me in the future.

 

So an ongoing conversation ties into this well. I've also found a whole different perspective about the now vs the future. Essentially everything in my life has gone not-as-expected in the last year. Professionally, personally in my closest relationship, where I live, everything. Just about the most down time I've ever had in life.
The impact it's had on me: I'm doing PT to treat back pain. The thing is, I never have had any interest in self care at all. Taking care of me has never been my priority. I worry about others. Finally here I am this year, my back hurts, and everything is going wrong. I thought to myself "I really don't have anything that I'm enjoying right now. If there are going to be any of those happy moments in life... it's going to be a while before that happens. For the first time, though, that became motivating. It's going to be a while before I have anything to look forward to, so I need to take care of myself if I want to be able to enjoy life's joys when I get to them again.

As for why are we here overall I think there's no unifying reason for all people. We just are. It's what we make of it. I cannot stand my own existence if I'm not doing something meaningful with it.