Do my actions deserve this kind of feedback...

Uh I live in Georgia.. why? lol

 

I don't know :/ sometimes I feel like I can't get anything better, but I'm gonna start going for guys that are better than that.

 

i was trying to see if i knew you
i have two taylor's in my group of friends 15 and the other 17 that are goin through the same thing.
you're story sounded soo much like both of theirs

 

I am actually scared of Georgia, not going to lie.

 

No i don 't think you a re a slut. But from what i read I think you need to have some more self respect . Wait until you known a guy for a while and you a re sure that he really cares and wants to be with you , just you before you have sex.
Always make sure you have protection
Oh that guy predo lay charges against the jerk
that is rape . No means No!

 

i admit i was a bit harsher than necessary with my first post, but i still stand behind what i said.

having sex with people you don't even want to have sex with is slutty, whether it's for attention or insecurity (same thing really anyway).

i fully believe that you said no, but a lot of girls say that as part of the game, and he may well have thought that's what was going on. you had no problem stopping him once he got it in, it just seems like you could have stopped him sooner if you really wanted to. but of course, i wasn't there so i really don't know what happened.

penetration is sex.

you are right, i didn't have to be such an asshole about it. i'm sorry about that.

you're a good looking girl. based on that alone, you can do better. personality is just a bonus at this point.

 

Look I agree that Pedro is a rapist asshole. The problem is that I don't think the op could handle what would ensue if she brought charges. It would go something like this Pedros Lawyer, "She was promisuous, she's had threesomes, pick up sex at rock concerts, and sex in school restrooms. She has a history of taking large doses of illegal drugs and blacking out."

That is some heavy shit to put a 15 year old with mental illness through (My apologies to Ruca I seem to remember you posting about this). I am not making these incedents up these are all incedents she has posted about on this very site.

Before you shoot out a bunch of crap that I'm sexist or that I believe that she desrves it that is a load of shit. I am an adult survivor of child sexual abuse. The majority of girlfriends I've had since Jr. Highschool have been raped or sexually abused. This is just how defense attourneys work.

Ruca you are not a slut. You just have a lot of issues to work out. I've been through the healing process and it is a real motherfucker. The sad thing is in reading these posts I see alot of my past. I was the nice guy that girls like Ruca liked just not "That way." If they would've given me the time of day then I would've wanted to make love to them. But they would've rather gotten raped by someone who was "Cooler" and not even aknowledged that it was rape. Kids.

Peace Out,
Rev J

 

True words from a wise man........

 

I guess it is but I'm working on that... Ive gotten quite a few requests for hook ups since then and I've turned them all down, even if the guy was sexy haha.

and yeah I probably could have stopped him sooner but 1) for some reason I would have felt bad if i had pissed him off so I didn't use as much force as I should have, and 2) I'll admit although it was kinda scary since I didn't want it, it was almost exciting at the same time...but I still definitely did not want to do it with him.

And I do not consider one second of forced penetration as sex at all.

and I forgive you for being an ass...

 

Yeahh I understand what you're saying, and I def do have issues to work out, but thanks for believing that I'm not a slut... I try not to see myself as that. and idk I'm not turned off by nice guys, its just when they're not attractive physically, and yeah I know I'm a bitch for caring too much about looks, but hell, I'm 15, I'm hardly better than some of the guys my age........well okay I'm better than most guys my age, but still, point taken I assume. lol.

 

Haha okay. but nah I don't thinkkk I know you :/

 

I've considered it before, I talk about it with my counseler and I know that the risks are extreme... but somehow I can't make myself reallyy believe that it could happen to me. I pretty much pray to god every day that it won't, and even though god seems to have failed me before, I still put a lot of trust in that. maybe it's ridiculous and maybe I am too immature, but I've been told this plenty of times by so many people and it still hasn't quite sunk in...

 

Thanks for not thinking of me as a slut, I know a lot of people right now do.
I definitely do need more self-respect, it's something I'm working on, and I've promised myself that I'm not going to get hurt by another guy that isn't worth it, especially after having sex with him. So, yeah, I'm gonna start looking for a guy that's actually worth my time for once... lol

 

Hahaha I could def do that.
but I'd still have the problem of being called a slut :/
but that would be very funny.

 

Thanks for the support, I do appreciate it.
but idk I wasn't really traumatized by it, the thing that really pissed me off was when he told people that I gave it up to him.
And yeah, one guy who's his friend has gotten with me... the guy who gave him my number, my ex :/
and idk when i had sex with my ex it wasn't rape, like I didn't reallyyy want to, because I was afraid that he'd hurt me again afterwards... but for some reason I decided to trust him... idk :/

 

I deleted quite a few numbers from my phone the other night, including Pedro's and Julio's along with another one of my exes who has been using me as a booty call lately and then a couple guys who I plain just don't like. So yeah, I won't be calling any of them again.
And I'll try to take your advice, but sometimes it's hard for me to avoid guys because I'm always just looking for that excitement that girls just don't usually provide for me, like whether I'm having sex with the guy or not, just the fact that we could be doing it is exciting for me... idk there's something wrong with me haha.
but yeah, I'm going to work on it.

 

I sure hope so, that actually helps a lot though, because even when I'm wicked depressed I always have hope for the future so maybe this will be forgotten, if not in a few weeks, at least by next school year..

 

Mexicans are sexy hahaa.
I just need to find one that's not a total douchebag.

 

that is a definite no :/
but i hope things work out for you chica.
i do not think you're a slut but i do think you need to be more assertive when you say "no" the first time.
also i know sex is great and all but in my opinion i think you should've waited...or maybe keep yourself in check....but that's just my opinion

 

Ha yeah sorry lol
and thankks and I'll work on ittt lol