Do I Have The Wrong Idea About Hippies?

What's goin on, y'all?? My name's Joseph. I guess as I find out whether or not I can gradually trust people, (As people have slowly drained my trust, blaming me all the way), I'll reveal more, but people are just ridiculous with their attitudes toward life. Here's the deal. At the moment, I have conditional employment that can be yanked away at any time. After that, I'm screwed. My father does not want to talk to me unless I am working and keeping my head above water. I'm an ex-heroin addict who has had issues in the past and I guess I cried wolf one too many times, because pretty much everybody gave up. My fiancee gave up on me too since I'm not the breadwinner. I've had it already. Was there honestly a time when anybody really did turn on, tune in, and drop out?? Cause that sure as hell sounds wonderful. Hippie websites want $40 for a year membership so you can find out about this stuff. Well, isn't that the wrong idea all together??!?!?? I just gotta know already, is there any place in the friggin country I can rest easy and just forget them all for free?? You can have my stuff, I'm totally open to communal living and have been interested in the hippie lifestyle for all my life, so that's no problem. I can adapt anywhere, and can't go to Canada because I have a drug conviction. These people sound more like metrosexuals getting away for the weekend rather than hippies...Can I get advice from someone with a similar contempt of society?? Are there places I can go and just work my ass off on a farm?? My stuff's open to share...I've had it already...

By the way, My birthday is September 1, 1967. Kinda weird how I just missed the summer of love...

If you're an old hippie and know something about this, even to let me know if I have the wrong idea altogether, Please hit me back.

Thanks.

Joseph